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She is a princess to her family. She is beautiful and pampered in every way. Everyone thought that her life is perfect but no one sees the pieces scattered inside.
He is the brain and he excels in every aspect ac...
"Lord, please take this away from me, I don't want this. How can I fall in love with the married woman" I was crying before God, pouring my heart before Him."I cannot be like this anymore. Lord, every time I see her entering the door of our meeting place, I cannot stop my heart from beating for her. Even if I see her holding the hands of her husband, but I cannot help it. I don't want to be in adultery, You know Lord, deep in my heart, I love you, and I want to serve you in purity and integrity, but how can I do that if I am sinning against You and worse mostly every Sunday?" I was kneeling before God and talking to Him as if He is there sitting before me. This conversation of me with God repeats again and again, almost every time after we finished our church meeting. I have had this burden for so long or since I laid my eyes on her and I don't want this anymore. I need to stop this.
I remember very well the first time I saw her my world turned upside down, She's the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my entire life. Her curly long blond hair bounces beautifully on her back, her slender body, her perfect oval shaped face, her long pointed nose, her thin pink lips and the genuine smile she is giving to everybody hit me big time, and from that day forward my tribulations begun because of course my eyes did not missed the detail that I wished it wasn't there, her husband, holding her hand protectively.
Like today in our meeting, she's wearing a long dress that fits her perfectly, it emphasizes every curve of her slender body, color blue and red that makes her fair white skin radiates more, all these things just makes my heart beats faster for her. I know I was not the only one who noticed her beauty, I heard groups of a young men talking about her, complimenting her beauty and how serious she is as believer, thing that I already perceived for a long while. In addition, I never heard any disrespectful or negative comments about them as a couple or as individual, everything seems so pleasant. I know their names. He is Pete, and she is Nelly. They gather with us not long ago, I have not talked to them yet. They are lovely couple, friendly, respectful, and they like to help others too; based on what I heard from the brethren. In terms of helping they always volunteered. But for me it's been an excellent tribulation going to the meeting; I cannot concentrate on the word of God shared; how can I? Knowing that I am also sinning? I feel hypocrite. Every time the meeting finishes I go before God and repent, then next Sunday, the same again. I have these significant burdens in me.
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"Val, what's wrong? What's happening!? I heard the voice of Sam with irritation. He was standing in front of me already. "Sam, how can you do this to me!?" I blurted out. "Do what!? I don't understand you. You said you needed help and now I am helping you but you just turn your back like that!?" I can sense he is upset. "I will not ask help from that married woman! That's all! Understand me now?" I shouted to him. "What!? You are talking nonsense!" He said grabbing my arm forcefully and drag me to enter the room again, walking straight to the woman I was avoiding.
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