Besties [Olivia Rodrigo X Female reader]. Rewritten.

"Happy New Year"

"Once again I remind you that you're a traitor," Conan muttered as I put on my earrings in front of the mirror.

"Well Con...It's not my fault it happened and we're going together after all!"

"Yes, we are. Me, you and your girlfriend. I wonder who will be the third wheel again?"

I turned to face him and Conan pointedly folded his arms across his chest and turned away from me.

"Don't pout please, and she's not my girlfriend" I stepped closer to him, putting my hands on his shoulders

"Come on. Forget it. It's not your fault you fell in love with her and she's your official date now."

I didn't say anything. Did I really fall in love? Mary and I had kind of been dating for almost three weeks and I invited her to celebrate the new year with us as my date. But the whole time I felt so split.

"I don't know if I'm really in love with her," I blurted out something I'd been repressing lately.

Conan's eyebrows went up in surprise.

"My dear, are you telling me I'm a third wheel now because of some girl you don't love? Damn, that sounded like an accusation, I'm sorry."

"It's okay. I...I have a liking for her but not love. It's just that with her.... she makes me feel alive, you know? It's like I've been living in some kind of gray dream lately and she woke me up."

"Yeah, you're making a lot of sense."

"But I feel guilty Con!" I clasped my hands together. I seemed to get carried away and I couldn't stop myself "She obviously loves me, and I can't say it back. I mean, I say it back, but I don't mean it. And it's killing me, I feel like I'm using her."

"Hey" Conan leveled at me "I'm bad at giving advice. But you know what I say? It's alright, if it makes you feel alive. After taking your past breakup to heart, maybe you just need something a little more non-stressful. And you've been together less than a month, that's a very short time. A person doesn't become super important and close to you right away, you have to give yourself time. And who knows, maybe in six months you won't be able to imagine your life without Mary"

I smiled gratefully at him and Conan took me in his arms.

"Thank you," I muttered, "I think you're right and I need time."

But even saying those words, I wasn't sure of them. But I wouldn't tell Conan that. After all, maybe it's just my overthinking.

"Actually, you could use some therapy. I mean, it always comes in handy, you know, in life."

He and I laughed.

"I have, but unfortunately my therapist can't solve all my problems."

"Okay, when's your main date planning to show up?" Asked Conan.

I stepped away from him and checked messages from Mary. She was texting that she was almost at my apartment. Me, her, and Conan would all go to the party together and meet up with the rest of our friends there.

Mary got there just in time. She came into my apartment in a white, short evening dress and a light coat.

"Wow, aren't you freezing like that?" I asked her.

"I hope not," replied Mary light-heartedly, "but in any case, beauty requires sacrifice."

I hugged her and then gave her a quick kiss on the lips. It felt awkward kissing her in front of Conan, considering that I'd told him a few minutes ago how my feelings for her weren't exactly the same as love.