Besties [Olivia Rodrigo X Female reader]. Rewritten.

Girl

"Y/n?" Olivia sighed and raised her head at me "what are you doing here?"

I stepped out of the shadows "I just...forgot my purse and came to get it."

"Oh yeah, you really were without your purse, I remember."

I sighed and sat down next to Olivia on the narrow bed. She turned her face away from me and wiped the tears from her cheeks

"If you're crying over that note then don't, you sounded great and we and the fans were thrilled with the show."

"It's not just about the note. It's also the fact that the things I've always been good at aren't working out now. It's that things are falling out of my hands. It's that I feel like I'm ruining this tour with my blunders. That I'm a total loser and there's nothing I can do about it!"

"oh..."

I didn't know what to say or do. What could I afford to do? It's not like I'm interfering in her life. There were two sides fighting inside me. One wanted to hug Olivia and comfort her, and the other reminded me that she had a boyfriend.

After all, no one ever died from a hug, I decided, and I cautiously crouched down next to Olivia and put my arm around her shoulders, and she pressed closer in response, so that I was now hugging her tightly with both hands

"You're there for me now. But you're not here when I need you the most. To hell with the tour. What are we Y/n? First you completely cut off our communication then you come here and start acting like we're friends. What are we to each other?"

"You know, it's a pretty tough question," I tried to put it down to a joke, but Liv wasn't in mood for jokes today, "I don't know, but...I miss 'us'. And now that it's over between us, I mean, we can go back to where we started. Be friends again."

"And I've missed you. All this time. And I keep missing you. But you took on the role of martyr, wished me happiness and left me. How so, Y/n?" Olivia's voice trembled with emotion

"Let me remind you that you kicked me out of your life first. You accused me of something I never did and then abruptly showed interest in me again. What do you call that, Liv?"

"You don't know all the reasons, you don't know why I did it!"

"But I think I do. You chickened out Liv, that's what happened. You decided you didn't need to fight for our future together. And then you thought I'd take you back."

"Then why are you sitting here with me?"

"Because I can't with you, and I can't without you either" I said quietly, "that's the problem."

"I think you're confused about yourself and how you feel."

"Aren't you too?You can't tell by your actions that you've made up your mind either." I asked, looking up at her

"I thought about you all the time. When I woke up, when I fell asleep. How you are, what you are, where you are. But I'm just tired."

My heart fluttered for a second, but then I remembered one little detail.

"Were you thinking of me when you fell asleep in Mark's arms? What a bloody paradox."

"You weren't thinking of me at all!"

"I was only thinking about you!" I said rising from the bed "you know very well how much it hurts when person who you love immediately find a replacement for you, and a replacement for your love. Because you've been through it yourself. And knowing how I would feel you chose that path."

"You know what I think? You're jealous of me, except you don't have any right to me anymore."

"What the hell is jealousy? I support you right now, that's not how jealousy shows up. I'm not jealous of you, I have no reason to be...And you know,it wouldn't have happened if you hadn't kicked me out of your life that morning.I would have been happy, but you chose another option."