Two Kingdoms | Park Sunghoon

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AERI POV.

Have I wished I was different? Yes.

Have I wished that I was born a male? Yes.

Have I wished that I was born commoner? Yes.

Have I wished that my father was different? Yes.

Have I thought it was all my fault? Yes.

I have and still think these things. There are times where everything feels so numb. And there are moments where I feel powerful and just love the feeling when I look in my mirror and see my amethyst and onyx bejewelled crown fit snugly on my head. But there are times where I can't stand the sight of the crown. The thoughts of who would be here if I wasn't brung into this world or if whoever else had the crown was a failure and an embarrassment too like me infiltrated my head more as the days past.

My heart aches and cries for a proper love. It's crazy, I know. Being a Queen and still not having anyone who loves you for you. Despite the hundreds of men who wait outside the palace for my hand in marriage, none want me because they take interest me. They only have interest in my title. They come in hopes I will swoon over them and offer them the title of King on a gold platter. Never.

I always feel that my mother loved me more than my father. I never met her, but I can sense her touch and protection, unlike my father. He was cruel, repulsive and had no shame. I swore to myself I would never settle for less. I would only fall in love if he gave me the same love I gave to him.