Falling Apart

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I am going to kill him! Flour, eggs, sugar, salt, butter cover the entire kitchen. Elias is standing by the sink, watching as I walk in annoyance into the kitchen.

"What the actual fuck, Elias!" I shout at him, "jeez, Mer, never heard you swear before." Aubrey says from behind me, laughing as she looks at the mess.

"Are you trying to piss me off? Because it's working!" I look up at him, my mouth wide open, eyebrows furrowed together and both hands up in confusion and annoyance.

"I was trying to cook breakfast for everyone" I drop my hands, my mouth closing and a sarcastic looks appears on my face.

"Yes because you really wanted to do something nice for us" I say sarcastically, "clean up" I finish the conversation, shaking my head turning away.

"No" I stop in my tracks, biting my bottom lip, anger consuming me. As I'm about to say something, Aubrey grabs both my elbows with her hands and pulls we to the front door.

"Let's go on a walk" She says, grabbing my coat and shoes, handing them to me.

"Luca! Make sure he cleans up. Don't do it for him" she yells out at Luca, him nodding his head in agreement.

I put my coat on, then my shoes, Aubrey following my steps and we leave the house, annoyance filling me in areas I never knew could be filled with so much god damn anger!

When Aubrey shuts the door behind us, I immediately yell aloud whilst walking with her through the forest.

"I actually can not handle him! He's such a dick, Aubrey!" We continue walking, but he face grows in surprise my my choice of words.

I roll my eyes, "yes I know. I swore. But he irritates the shit out of me. And he's so confusing. Like one minute he's ignoring me, then next he's angry at me, then he admires that I watched porn, then he's back to hating me, then-

"Porn!" She yells, then quietens down in realisation of her loudness, "porn" she says again, whispering.

I nod my head. "I will only tell you because I trust you will keep it a secret. I mean... you are like a sex and porn addict yourself so..."

"I won't tell" she says. We keep walking, out onto the sidewalk of the main road, I place my hands in my coat pocket, looking out in front of me.

"He tells me that he does not want anything to do with love, that he is only doing this for his reputation, which made me so so mad. So I slapped him-

"You slapped him?!"

"Yep. And it felt amazing. But it was the fact that I had only been in his presence for what... twenty minutes? And I had already changed in so many ways. I knew he would not be good for me, but I still had hope. But then I heard music coming from his bedroom, and one thing turned to another and I walked in on him jerking off-

"Seriously" she says surprised. Stopping in her tracks.

We both notice a bench and take a seat, watching as cars drive by.

"He was. And he was so intimidating, and I would never in my life like that type of man but... there is something about him. That makes me want that. He is the dangerous, adventurous, passionate type and I guess that was the most interesting part about him for me. Because we are polar opposites and I never would have imagined myself with something him."

Aubrey I smiling, watching as I speak of what happened between me and Elias.

"Anyway. I went to my room and seeing him do that... intrigued me. I wanted to know how it felt. So I found porn and watched and... played or touched. I don't know. I never knew any of this was involved."