Forgotten kiss ||Hyunlix<3||

Meeting.

In.. love? I've never been in love in my whole life. This family must be crazy. What am I getting myself into?

I wasn't particularly sure just why I was willingly sitting in a waiting room for a boy I just learned existed today. It seemed rather odd of me, no?

Even so, here I was, waiting for Yeji to call me into the room to meet said boy. His name was Hyunjin.

Hyunjin looked.. rather exhausted and sad, but to me; he also looked beautiful.

As crazy at that sounds, it was true. If you really looked at him, he was so pretty. He was just a little lost right now, but anyone with working eyes could see it.

I sat still for what felt like forever in the lobby, until I saw Yeji peak her head out through the door of the room Hyunjin was in. She shot me a tight smile, "he's awake.. and he remembers you two saw each other. If you wanted to see him, now is the chance before he changes his mind."

I stood up quickly, with no hesitation at first. Then it hit me that whatever happened between us, must have fucked him up good. Why was I totally fine? And didn't remember a single thing?

I shook it off and walked to the door, when she opened it all the way, my eyes were closed. I'm not sure why I was so nervous, it was basically like meeting a stranger right? I took a deep breath and then took a step forward into the room.

It was quiet, nobody was talking as I slowly stepped up to the bottom of the bed. The boys eyes we're casted down, watching his finger twiddle with the hospital blanket.

"H-hi," I spoke up softly, unsure if I was allowed to break the silence.

There was nothing.

Yeji took a step towards me, placing a hand on my back. She pushed lightly, guiding me close to the side of the bed where a chair had been.

I took a seat, sitting stiffly and very awkward. I brought my hand up to brush away a piece of hair that had fallen in my eyes. I saw Hyunjin flinch as I did and immediately regretted it.

"Sorry.. I didn't mean to make you nervous or anything." I said setting my hands nearly back into my lap.

"I-it's okay."

His voice was raspy, and quiet. Yeji gave tight smile, "I'm gonna be right outside the door okay," I nodded , but Hyunjin just sat still. His eyes still glued forward.

"Uhm.. I'm Felix.. which I mean, you somehow already know that-" I spoke up, trying to strike a conversation.

"Yeah.. I know." Was all I got. Saying it as awkward was an understatement. It was dreadfully painful to sit beside him in silence knowing there was some big secret no one was telling me.

I just nodded my head. I decided to let myself be curious about things. I let my eyes wander, they landed on his arms. His small dainty arms. They had so many scars and even new wounds.

"They don't hurt."

I looked up to see Hyunjin also looking at his arms. "I-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-"

"It's fine."

"So.. you're not in pain?"

Hyunjin tilted his head, thinkin of what to say, "well that's a very general question. But my arms aren't in any pain, no."

I mentally slapped myself on the forehead, it was a dumb question to ask. I'm just glad I got an answer this time. He was speaking to me.

"Are you scared of me?" I blurted out without warning, it even surprised myself.

"...I'm not sacred of you."

"You seemed like it in the store, I didn't know if something happened or.." I was scared to bring up the store, but I took a leap of faith.

"Something did happen. But I'm not scared of you, I'm scared of what I could do to you." He said a bit quieter than everything else he's said so far.

But what he said made my brain start to think hard. Scared of what he could do to me? Was I safe right now? I tensed up a bit, and by the quick glance I got I knew he could tell.

"I know I scare you." He said subtly.

He didn't scare me. Not in the way he probably thinks.

"I'm not scared of you. I'm intrigued by you.." I said, not knowing exactly if that was the right word to use.

"Trust me," he scoffed a little, "I'm not someone you want to get to know.. again. Especially now."

Again.

We sat there in silence, not awkward. Just a lot unsaid.

"Well.. would you let me if I did?" I asked.

Hyunjin blinked, shock written all over his face. His mouth opened as if he was going to respond, but he was interrupted by the door opening, and a tall but young boy entering. Fear and sympathy was laced in her voice, "Hyunjin.." he said, and ran over to the other side of the bed.

"Hi niki."

The boy just smiled, an unknown exchange had happened between the two. I was sat there, silently curious has to what the boys answer was going to be, but it was clear he was tired.

I stood up, grabbing my jacket off the back of the chair. "Well, I should get going.. I'll see you around Hyunjin." I said giving a small smile. He didn't smile back though.

He only nodded, and then looked out the window. His eyes remained there when I turned to look back, before closing the door behind me.

So much wasn't talked about, but at the same time; I already feel like I know so much.. somehow.