All Too Well

Be alright

'Meredith!' Bailey yelled at her from the OR board. She walked to her, 'yeah?' she said. Can you take my surgery over in OR 3 I'm too busy.' Meredith nodded and got ready for her surgery.

' Dr. Grey we're ready for you' one of the nurses said while Mer was scrubbing in. 
She finished and walked in the OR.
Everything went smoothly no complications then Meredith felt an intense pain in her stomach. She groaned and took a step away from the table, trying to breath trough the pain. The pain got less and she straightened her back. Everybody stared,
'I'm fine' she said 'concentrate please!'
That this happened was awful enough, she didn't need the whole staff staring at her too. The rest of the surgery went fine, until they were about to close the patient. Another wave of intense pain came. Mer tried not to let the rest know that it was there again. So she asked the resident that assisted her to close up.

As fast as she could, she got out of the OR and went into the first on-callroom she saw. Closed the door and laid down on on of the beds. Just when she thought she would be fine, another wave of pain came. What was this she thought to herself, it wasn't her period. This was worse. But wait, when was her last period? Was she miscarrying?
The door opened, it was Callie. She wanted to close the door when she saw Mer, but noticed that something was wrong.
' Meredith what's wrong?' she asked now, closing the door. ' 'I... I don't know...I think I'm having a miscarriage.' She wispered.
'You're pregnant?' Callie asked confused. ' I didn't know either, I didn't feel well the last few weeks but I didn't think anything about it.' she cried. Callie took her into a huge, they sat for a while until Mer calmed down.

The pain kept return, so Callie took Meredith to OB to let her get checked out. She was indeed having a miscarriage, Callie stayed with Mer until the pain was over.
Meredith had insisted not to call Nick since she didn't want him to worry about her.
Now she was alone in her hospital room. Callie was paged 911 so she couldn't stay.
Sick she was, not just of the pain she just had to go through but, sick of sadness and blame. Why hadn't she taken a pregnancy test, she should have. Maybe she could have prevented this to happen if she'd known. She would definitely been more careful, she would have done anything to let the baby be as healthy as it could be. Non of the would have happened.
She blamed herself, really, really blamed  herself, she did this! What would Nick think of her if he knew, would he still love her if he knew how careless she was?
All these thoughts were circling in her head over and over again, until she couldn't take it anymore and started to cry uncontrollably . How would she ever be alright?

Hi this is the first chapter of the fanfic. Hope you liked it. If you have any tips or Ideas I'm happy to hear them. (English isn't my first languages so if u have any tips on that please tell me)