Paul & Moi

Chapter 28

It's over between us"

I remain shocked by his words. So it's really the end? After all we have endured, is it Paul who decides to end our relationship? I can't say that it doesn't matter to me. On the contrary, in the pronouncement of these words, I feel my heart break into millions of pieces. I can't say a word.

"I have something to confess to you"

I try to look him in the eye with so much good and evil. He has no expression, not even a hint of compassion or pity.

"I fell in love with another girl."

Billions of pieces of glass cross my side. How can he stay so cold and throw me such raw words? So all this time, he has never been sincere with me.

A brunette arrives and he hugs her. He smiles like I've never seen him smile. He can't help but kiss her before my eyes and then she takes off his top in front of my eyes. The girl gives me a petty smile and it's none other than Jena!

I try to scream but no sound comes out. I stay planted there, motionless, forced to look at them.

I jump out of my bed. It was just a dream! I'm trying to calm down. How could a dream affect me so much? Why can't I get rid of him?

I get up to get ready quickly before going to class. I always have the images of Jena and Paul in my head, it's horrible.

When I get to high school, I don't waste my time hanging out. I immediately rush to my locker to put my things there. I hear someone disembark and land against the locker next door.

"What do you want?" I ask knowing who it is.

"ExpropriaTE me?"

I violently close my locker and move away from it.

"Listen, I'm sorry. I had drunk a little with the guys and I got carried away with you, I shouldn't have. Excuse me." .

"I'm fed up with all your bullshit. I get to a point where I'm saturating!"

I see that everyone is looking at us. I may have spoken too loudly.

I'm going to my room but Paul doesn't give up and continues to follow me.

"Nina please! We can't stop there! "

I turn to him.

"And why not?"

He no longer knows what to say. I leave it planted there and cross the corridor. I feel like everyone is talking about us. I see girls who have a smile up to their ears. I don't pay attention to them and go to my room.

"Miss Forbes! Sit in your place quickly"

I make myself discreet and I execute myself right away.

His course is quite boring and I have trouble concentrating. Jena gives me some stealthy glances from time to time but I don't even try to give them back to her. I spend the class chatting with my left-wing neighbor and the teacher doesn't say anything, which is quite surprising because he's the type to scream all the time and get angry for nothing.

The day is quite long and I remained isolated. The feeling of being alone had never happened to me, I have always been very surrounded by my loved ones. It gives a blow to morale!

I prefer to go home quickly because the last thing I want to see is Paul with Jena.

As soon as I get home, I collapse on the sofa, not wanting to do anything.

BAM BAM BAM!

I wake up all of a sudden. It's 7pm! How long did I sleep?? I feel like I've slept all day.

BAM BAM BAM!

Who is striking so hard? I go to the door and see Paul in the window.

"I know you're here Nina! I just want us to talk!"

Never quiet! I open the door for him and he rushes inside.

"Are you all alone?"

"My parents went on a trip I don't know where."

"Sit with me, we need to talk"

I feel like I'm reliving this morning's dream.

"At the moment I don't have clear ideas. Everything is confused in my head."

And now he's going to say it's over...

"And I don't know where we are..."

I don't know what to answer...

"But I know I need you by my side. We can't break up, really not."

"So why are you acting like an asshole with me?" I can't help but ask him.

"I don't know. I'm sorry. I'm going to make an effort, I promise you."

I must admit, at that time, he is rather cute.

He looks me in the eyes intensely. I show him that I can also play this game. He then stares at my lips before kissing me. No matter how much we are together, it must have been a while that we have not had a real kiss. He lies me on the couch and continues to kiss me. Usually, he directly tries to go further. This time, I feel restrained at home, as if he did not dare. He stands up and caresses my leg.

"Did you eat at noon?"

I answer with a head movement and he grabs his phone.

"What are you doing?" I ask him, surprise.

"I'm ordering a pizza for tonight"

So he's going to stay?

We lie on the couch watching TV while waiting for the pizza to arrive.

"Tomorrow there's a party at home I don't know who. Are you going?

"Oh yes, it's true! Yes, it's going to have a little fun," I answer.

"Don't have too much fun anyway! I'll be there to watch you"

I look at him "Are you serious?" That he understands right away.

"I'm laughing" he takes me in his arms.

The delivery man rings at the door and Paul will open. He comes back with a giant pepperonni pizza that we finish in two seconds.

We go up to my room to watch series on Netflix. I'm in Paul's arms and we're huddled under the blanket. Paul ends up falling asleep before me while hugging me. I turn off the TV so as not to disturb him. In moments like this, I don't want to leave him anymore. I just want to stay in his arms forever. I end up joining him in his sleep.