Paul & Moi

Chapter 37

"You will see her again Nina" Derek comforts me.

"I know, but it won't be the same. She will no longer be nearby," I explain to her, hoisting me in her arms.

I'm lying on Derek's legs on the floor that is up against my bed.

"Try to see the good side of things. When you see her again, you will have to make up for lost time and enjoy your moments even more. Your moments together will be more precious and important," he said, caressing my arm.

Taking advantage of every moment is what I have been wanting to do since my accident. I want to take advantage of every moment with my loved ones so as not to have any regrets.

"Thank you Derek. You always have the words to make me smile again" I thank him with a slight kiss.

I rest in his protective arms for a few moments. I cling to him and close my eyes. I love his perfume. I love this perfume he wears. He reminds me of something. No, someone. This perfume. I've already felt it many times but not on Derek. I close my eyes more intensely and concentrate. This perfume. I felt it...I felt it when I was in his arms. A Paul. Paul! A memory finally comes back to me! We were close. I was blozing in his arms.

"Nina?" Derek cuts me off in my thoughts.

I open my eyes and immerse my eyes in his blue eyes. I kiss him gently. I like Derek, I can't deny it but I feel a lack. I don't know what, but I'm missing something.

"I'm going to have to go. I promised my parents that I would attend their dinner."

He kisses me and then eclipses.

Although I'm with Derek, I can't help thinking about Paul. I don't remember anything but I need to know. I need to know.

I turn on my phone and I see a message from him.

"We have to talk."

I answer him favorably.

"I agree. Can we see each other?"

He responds very quickly.

"Yes, I'll pick you up in half an hour?"

I hope it's not a bad plan.

"Where are we going?"

"Lovers Jeckers"

Lovers Jeckers? Curious as a name. I'm getting ready pretty quickly. Nothing extravagant or particular.  I'm not going there to flirt. Someone ends up honking a few tens of minutes later. I get off pretty quickly and then get into his car. I greet him and fasten my belt.

"How are you?" He asks me.

I look at him to answer him but my attention is immediately on his green eyes. They are so captivating! His eyes... I remember that I used to admire them. When we were in bed, we played looking at each other in the back of our eyes for as long as possible. I always ended up giving in. At the same time, how to resist?

"Nina?"

I realize that I am staring at him as a psychopath. Shame! I lower my head to hide.

"Excuse me, I..." I lose my words.

"Don't you remember anything?"

"No" I answer him.

I have a few snippets of memories that come back to me but nothing more. I don't totally remember him.

We arrive at the restaurant with a retro atmosphere. I have an impression of déjà vu.

A waitress welcomes us. She smiles at Paul and then stares at me.