Against All Odds

Chapter 3 A little hope?

The moment that I read that caption everything around me seemed to have stopped.

I stared blankly into the television set as my heart deeply began to drop.

A billion, trillion thought instantly came flooding inside of my mind.

Was it really possible for my life to unravel this much all at one time?

Could my luck really be this bad, could I actually be cursed?

Devastated tears rain down my face as I'm feeling so much hurt.

My nurse walks into my room, and can instantly see that I'm drowning myself in a ocean filled with tears.

"Jessica, Jessica, sweetie what is the matter? Are feeling any pain?"

No I'm feeling disaster, where is my family, they were supposed to be here hours ago!

"Well Jessica sweetie there was a really severe car wreck so traffic is running terribly slow."

It was my family wasn't it!

"No Jessica not at all, why would you think such a horrific thought?"

I saw the news caption that depicted my family so very well.

"But Jessica I'm telling you that your family is certainly alive and well.

We just found out that the family that died in the tragic car crash, was actually the neighbors of someone on our staff."

My heart beat immediately stopped racing, but I still felt bad for the family that had died in the crash.

I could not imagine losing my family, especially in a time like right now.

My David is already gone, and my family was the only thing I had left to pick me up off of the ground.

I could not bare the pain of losing anybody else who was close is my life.

I undoubtedly would throw in the towel and give up this fight on life.

After my emotions calm down, my nurse Sarah and I talked for about a few minutes.

"Well Jessica tell me how your feeling."

Like shit, like a big piece of shit.

The love of my life isn't here to tell me "Jess it will be alright."

No more resting my head on his chest as I relieve all of my stress.

No more movies nights, anniversaries, or play fights.

There is now an empty hole inside of my chest where my heart use to rest.

My heart as passed away with David's unthinkable death.

I have been rapped, abused, and made out to be a fool.

My thoughts are now filled up with extreme hatred.

I have forever been robbed of my loving and trusting nature.

"Well Jessica I most certainly understand all of your pain, but I promise there is always sunshine after the rain.

Do not let this set you back, use this as motivation to overcome and succeed.

Build your strength back up and speak out for the one's who are in need."

I stared deeply into Sarah pretty brown eyes, and I knew that every word she spoke was true.

But my mind was so confused, I did not know what to think or what to do.

All that I could do at the moment was fall into Sarah's warm open arms.

I cried my eyes dry, and I thought to myself God oh why?

"Do you need anything Jessica?"

No mam, I'm just going to lay down and get some rest.

"Okay holler if you need me I'll be back later to check."

I close my eyes and I dreamed of living in another world, somewhere where I wasn't Jessica, I was another girl.

Somewhere in the universe where the word pain did not exist.

Because in my life on earth pain was all that I seemed to get.

I fall into a deep sleep and I wake up a couple of hours later.

Sarah walks back into my room, and tells me that my family will be here in about thirty minutes.

Finally I thought, as I felt a bit of joy for just a minute.

I couldn't wait to see their faces, especially my baby brother Joe, who was the cutest seven year old that anybody could ever know.

"Oh Jessica guess what! A miracle happened today!

The boy pronounced dead on the scene earlier has somehow found a way!

He's still alive, but barely he is in very critical condition!

But at least there is still hope that he has a chance of living!"

I didn't know what to do, but to burst out into tears of joy.

I felt so ecstatic for the miracle little boy.

I hope he survives and lives a long healthy, prosperous life.

I could not actually believe that my night was starting to shape up quite alright.

OR SO I THOUGHT!