...If Michael Only Knew...(On Hold)

The Flight (Oct. 5, 1987)

"Maria, aren't you excited!? In a little less than 4 hours, we get to be with your brother!" Michael asked as he squirmed around in his seat with excitement. He was way more excited than Maria, because he had never met Delano before. Maria didn't say anything, She just giggled a bit. "How you feeling babygirl...you've been awfully quite today!" Elnora said. She and Chinna along with Hanan were sitting across from Michael and Maria on the plane. Maria sighed. "I don't know how I'm feeling Nora. I don't. I'm sore and  my mind is racing!All I can think is what happened between me and Lamar three weeks ago..." Maria groaned. Chinna bit her lip.

"Well Maria, have you talked to anyone about what exactly happened that day, besides the police?" Hanan asked. "Yeah, she told me." Michael said looking into Maria's face. Maria shook her head, clearly embarrassed.  "No Michael, I didn't tell you the full story...I didn't want to upset you, because I'm pretty sure, instead of doing what you did to Lamar, you would've killed him." Maria said. Slash came up and playfully sat in his cousin Chinna's lap. "What's going on y'all?" He asked with a smile. Chinna laughed and tried to push him off her but he wouldn't budge. "Nothing much, Maria was just about to talk to us about something...weren't you?" Michael said. Maria sighed and nodded her head.

"Well, That morning, Michael had left me a letter, letting me know that he was at the center for practice. I got out of bed and  was on...I was on my way to take a shower and I heard a knock at the door. I knew everyone was gone that was with the tour crew, so I assumed that it was room service, then the voice on the other side said that they were room service. I told them that I didn't need any, but then, the fool started knocking all loud and full of rage seem like. Then, he broke down the door and I remember screaming his name as I tried to run into the bathroom and lock myself in, but he caught me. He spat in my face and began to taunt me by calling me "A worthless bitch" ,"Prissy","Selfish, and so on. I wailed and cried in his arms, begging him to let me go. He slapped me and threw me to the floor. I hit my head pretty hard, but it didn't knock me out or anything like that. Then, he stood over me and said "Well, looks like your little princess isn't here to help you bitch...I'm gonna get what I want, whether you like it, or not!" Then, I kicked him in his knee and made it buckle. He fell to the ground and I got up and tried to escape, but he caught me and whipped me with a wire hanger. I cried and yell for help, but then I remembered, that the entire  floor of the hotel we were in was empty, because the tour crew was at practice too, so I just laid there on that cold floor and watched as Lamar ripped the cord from the wall that was connected to the phone and he ripped my clothes from my body...and he whipped me raw. I counted how many times he hit me...98...he hit me 98 times on my chest, stomach and back. Then, after he whipped me for trying to escape, he picked me up and made me turn around so that my back was facing towards him.. He smacked my ass hard as he could and then he yanked my hair and pulled me to the bedroom and threw me on the bed. There, he began to call Michael out of his name and tell me that Michael didn't really care about me and that if he did, he would've never let me stay in there alone. He then forced me to perform oral sex on him and to call  him 'daddy'...Then, when I finished...he told me to lay down...I wouldn't lay down at his command and I wouldn't stop crying. So, he slapped me and scratched me multiple times. At this point, I was bleeding, my eyes were red and swollen, and I had a major headache from when I hit my head on the floor. He then opened my legs and began to play with himself over my body. I tightly closed my eyes and wished that my injuries would kill me, but nothing happened. I heard a light grunt come from Lamar's lips and when I opened my eyes, he had came on my chest and was positioning himself between my shivering legs. I began to pray and I guess he heard me, because he slapped me again and yelled 'Your God can't save you Maria! Only I can!" He said filled with anger...then, he forced himself all the way into me.He forced every inch of himself inside me! I screamed and he covered my mouth. After the first stroke, I screamed for Michael over and over, but what for? He couldn't hear me! Lamar pulled out and I looked down to see blood, a clear sign that he had officially just taken what the fuck he came for, my virginity...he continued to thrust in and out of me with no remorse! I cried and begged him to stop, but he wouldn't...then, I remember his breaths getting shorter and his strokes slowed down, a sign that he was reaching his climax then, I blacked out.I think I was out for at least two to three hours before I woke up and called Michael. I couldn't stop bleeding. I don't even know how I didn't die from blood loss! Then, like 10 of 15 minutes later, Michael came in and he was irate! Don't get me wrong, I'm always happy to see Michael, but when I saw him that day, I never wanted him to leave me again..." Maria said wiping a tear from her eye.