...If Michael Only Knew...(On Hold)

Rehearsals Resume (Sep. 27, 1987) Part 2

*~Michael's POV~* 

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Alright, alright look. I know you all are wondering where I'm going this early and why wouldn't I tell Maria, Lisa, or anyone in my crew where I was going. Don't worry, I'm not going out because I'm pissed that Japan isn't any different than America when it comes to creating lies about about me to make a quick buck, and I'm not out to seek revenge on Lamar for what he did to My best friend...well...not yet anyway...but, I'm actually out for a good reason. I'm holding a meet and greet/ album signing at a near by center. I know you're all like "Really Michael? THATS what you've been hiding from us?" but, I had to keep it a secret because if Maria and Lisa ever found out that I was going to be out in the public eye after being threatened by Lamar, and this recent news story, they would FLIP! Especially Maria. Maria has been kinda...over protective lately and up my ass about safety and watching out for Lamar, and... if she ever found this out, she wouldn't be too happy with me right now. I'm personally not worried about Lamar trying to come here anyway and get some shit started, because I'm a 100% sure that my little MoonWalker babies would kick his ass! Anyway...  I mean,I have three of my bodyguards on hand, but thats not good enough for Maria! She has to be where ever I am to make sure that I'm safe everywhere we go even before this whole Lamar ordeal! Plus, I still haven't figured out what she meant when I held her, so she could keep warm that night and she said that I was making her warm in a place that I wasn't even touching or something like that! I love my bestfriend so much, but I really need to know what all this is about...

Back at the hotel, Maria and Lisa are still trying to figure out where Michael could be.

"Michael wasn't even like, dressed up how he usually is when he is going out in public Ria!" Lisa said. She was still pacing back and forth in the room as Maria lay on the foot of the bed and held her tummy. "Lisa, I feel sooooo bad that I can't be there with him, where ever he may be. I wanna keep him safe from danger.By danger, I mean Lamar's crazy ass." She mumbled as she wiped away an annoying curl from her face. Lisa laid beside Maria and giggled. "Awwwwe! Stankah wants to keep he little applehead safe! Ain't that cute!" She said while pinching Maria's blush red jaws. Maria giggled a little. "Ha Ha, very funny Lisa. You know I love Mikey with all my heart girl! I can't shake that feeling...". Lisa grabbed Marias hand. "Look, Im sick of watching you constantly stress over Michael and his well being and you not even try to talk to the guy about your feelings!" Lisa exclaimed.

"Well, sometimes, it ain't as easy as it seems! In order for me to talk to Michael about my feelings, that is gonna take every ounce of courage and confidence that I have! And what if he says no? Then what?..." The though of Michael rejecting her brought tears to her eyes. "I can't even...you know what Lisa...I've cried so much since I've been to Japan. I thought that being on tour with Michael would be the best experience of my life! I was so excited because Michael wanted me to go on the victory tour with him, but I didn't, so now, I'm here! I Just wanted to come to show support and because he begged me! I thought I would love it, but instead, it's been hell since that damn plane landed. I'm the reason that the fucking tour hasn't even started yet! And Lisa, what if I'm pregnant? Michael isn't gonna want to deal with that! Every since my family was murdered, I feel like I have been a burden on Michael and his family, especially Mother Katherine! I just wanna be loved. I deserve to be loved Lisa, like everyone else. I just want Michael to love me."

Maria broke down facedown in Michael's pillow. She was laying on his side of the bed. Lisa couldn't say a word, so she just sat beside Maria and comforted her.After a few minutes, They both drifted off to sleep.