...If Michael Only Knew...(On Hold)

Depression, Fights, and Bullsh*t (Oct. 3, 1987)(Part 1)

It's 5 am. Michael and Maria are fast asleep in their room...well, it's more like Michael is fast asleep in the room. Maria is awake and on edge. She hasn't slept since the incident that took place almost 48 hours ago. She just watches Michael as he sleeps and keeps and even closer eye on the door. Even when they were at the hospital. She's terrified and ready to head back to California, but she knows that she can't leave without Michael. She just would be putting them both in even more danger. Besides, how could she leave the man she loves high and dry?...

" Michael, I-I know you can't hear me, but...I just need to say this before I explode. Every since me and you were little kids, you were always...misunderstood. Alot of people even stooped as low as to say that you were gay and even made fun of you. At first, it bothered you a little. You called yourself a loser and you even wrote that song "I am a loser" !  Now, you can give two fucks what they think...You hated yourself for a little while after being diagnosed with vitiligo, but I was there for you. In the early parts of the 80's, you got your nose done, and people judged you for it. But I didn't. I actually think it's adorable. The media constantly taunts you non-stop about the smallest things and it doesn't bother you, but it bothers me daily...I wish I was as strong as you. Michael, I love you, but I know we'll probably never work out because of Lamar. And the fact that I'm pregnant with his child won't help at all... it'll just be a never ending ride with the media. I really do want you, but I can't find the courage to tell you how I feel when you're awake..." Maria suddenly paused. Michael woke up and stretched. "Maria? Who are you talkin' too?" He said with a weak smile. Maria blushed. "Oh, I was just praying...I can't sleep Michael." Maria said as a tear fell from her eye. Michael sat up and turned on the lamp. He pulled down the covers to expose his perfectly crafted carmel chest and looked at Maria. "You're crying...What for?" Michael asked as he slid on his shirt that was beside him on the floor. "I'm just tired Michael. After the whole thing with Lamar and finding out that I was pregnant from him, I just couldn't get many hours of sleep. Maybe two or three at best. But now that he almost KILLED you, I haven't been able to sleep at all." She said as she laid back against the headboard and closed her eyes. "Maria Honesty Cooper, You know that being pregnant and not sleeping properly is not healthy, for either one of you. I know you're scared, but security and I, Michael Joseph Jackson, will not allow anything else to happen to you. I promise." Michael smiled and Maria shook her head and got under the covers. "Michael? Do you remember when we were little and what you used to do when I couldn't sleep?" She asked sweetly. Michael giggled. "Yeah, I would play with your hair and sing a random song that popped into my head until you fell asleep, which was almost instantly." He laughed. "Well, can you do it, right now?" Maria said softly. "Anything to get you to sleep." Michael began to play in Maria's hair and sung "Ben". Just like the good old days. Before he got to the last verse, Maria was out cold. "Goodnight, Ria." Michael whispered as he turned over to cut off the lamp. He slowly drifted back off to sleep.

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Michael is awake, but he decided to let Maria sleep in since their was nothing for him to do today, he decided that he would stay in and look out for Maria, as well as talk to the tour crew about boosting security and their flight to the next city. He also wanted to squash the beef between Tatiana and Hanan. He didnt want to bother Maria, even though she was also involved. Slash and Hanan are already over and they are waiting for the rest of the crew members that he called to show up before they start. "Michael, I'm just glad you're okay man. You had us worried sick out there man! It was terrible!" Said Slash. Michael shook his head. "I heard all of the comotion! I heard you guy screaming for me, the audience yelling and the spotlight crashing to the stage. I just couldn't reply! It was like, I was semi-concious or something! I couldn't feel anything though, but other than that, I wasn't hurting much until I woke up. THATS when my head started thumping!" Michael laughed. Hanan crossed  her legs and sighed. "Michael, I'm glad you're okay. I was so scared to take your pulse, because If you were dead, I would've lost it!" Michael smiled and placed his hand on top of hers. "You know Hanan, I was right...I knew it was you that took my pulse..." He smiled. Hanan blushed.

"How?" She asked. Michael rubbed  her hand softly. "Because, I remember your touch. The feel of your soft skillfull hands." He said with a smirk on his face. Hanan blushed and pulled her hand away from Michael's. Slash quickly changed the subject. "Well, Michael, I'm pretty sure that you're still going to continue the tour, so I won't even asked that question.But, here's a question I DO have..." Michael waved his hand, signaling Slash to continue. "...This situation with Tatiana, Hanan, and Maria. I saw how she did them at the hospital. I don't want any friction on the tour between them. We have enough goin' on. Especially Maria." Slash pushed his poofy curls out of his face and turned to hanan, who had a sour look on her face. "Yeah Michael! We didn't even do anything!" Hanan fussed. Michael was about to speak, but there was a knock at the door. "Who is it?" He asked. "It's me, Tatiana and Chinna!" She replied. Michael shot Hanan a look and mouthed to her "Be good, please?  For me?" Hanan nodded her head and Michael went and opened the door. Tatiana came in and sat right beside Michael. Chinna sat beside Hanan. "How you feelin' Michael?" Chinna asked sweetly. Michael blushed and smiled. "I-I'm fine Chinna...thanks for askin'" Tatiana spoke up. "I'm glad your okay Mikey poo. Now, what problems do we have to address today?" She asked while running her finger up and down his arm. Michael shivered. "Huh, Tatiana, Slash and I notice that at the hospital, you were a little disrespectful towards Maria and Hanan. Now I know you know this already, but Hanan is my close friend, and she's also my Ex girlfriend. and Maria is my best friend who was the victim of a vicious crime and is currently pregnant. Both of these people are close to my heart and I don't want you to cause any friction between you and them. What you did was very rude, and you should appologize to them both. " Michael scolded. Chinna and Slash gasped as Tatiana stood up and went off. 

"Why are you actin' like Hanan and Maria are such angels? Hmm?! You act like Maria always liked me! And Hanan...don't even get me STARTED about that one!" SHe said as she pointed to Hanan. Chinna stood up. "Look Tatiana, you're blowing this out of proportion! Calm down!"  She said. Hanan started laughing to herself to keep calm. "I will not calm down Chinna! I refuse! Michael is sitting here, acting like Hanan is more important than me or something! She ain't shit and Maria ain't shit!" Tatiana yelled. Michael stood up and so did Hanan. "Hey!! Be quiet! Maria is tryin to sleep man!" Michael fussed. Tatiana didn't listen. She continued to talk shit to Hanan. Hanan just stood there and listened. "...I don't care who you were to Michael bitch, but now, you ain't nothin' but a background singer!" Tatiana yelled as she pointed in Hanan's face. Hanan turned red. "The hell did you just call me?" She asked. Tatiana snickered and said "You heard me the first time...now move! I'm leaving..." She said as she grabbed her room key and walked towards the door. As she walked passed Hanan, she bumped her disrepectfully and laughed, but not for long...

Hanan lost it. 

~ Maria is a wreak!

~ Tatiana is a MESS!

~ What Did Hanan Do?

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