...If Michael Only Knew...(On Hold)

Bonding. (Oct. 5th 1987)

*Delano's POV*

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DAMMIT! What in the absolute fuck! Some guy RAPED my sister?! Not only did he rape her, but he beat her, taunted her, GOT HER PREGNANT FOR GOD'S SAKE!!! I don't understand. Maria is a sweet girl. She doesn't deserve this! I finally get a chance to fucking be with her and I have to come here to find out that I'm gonna be an uncle! Ooo I swear on everything if I meet up with this Lamar guy,his ass is mine! He's gotta die. No if's, and's, or buts! He's gotta die! After listening to Michael explain to me what took place that day, I don't feel too good. It truly is sickening. Real shit. It's disgusting how this man could literally break her in like that and for what? To leave her with scars. Not only physically, but mentally. But most importantly...a kid. She won't have to raise it alone though. She's got Me, the tour crew, and especially Mike. Speaking of him, Michael doesn't believe that Maria has a crush on him. I don't see how he doesn't believe! Even Slash sees it man! Every time I talk to her, she's talking about this guy. I hope they soon end up together because as the months go by, and that baby gets bigger and those hormones lose control...she's gonna need him...

*Michael POV*

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Why is everyone saying this? If Maria likes me, she would tell me. She's a brave, beautiful, smart young woman. As a matter of fact, I'm gonna ask her myself soon just to prove them wrong. Just because she does cling to me and all, doesn't mean she wants a relationship! I mean, come on. I basically helped raise her. I would die for Maria and this child she is carrying...If she wants to talk to me in that way, I wouldn't dare reject her. Rejection is the LAST thing she needs right now. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to feel this way about Stanka...Damn. I guess I just admitted that I like her! Looks like the cat's out of the fucking bag. YES. YES. I admit it! I've always had a crush...a longing for Maria. I just never knew how to tell her! I didn't think I was good enough for such a phenomenal woman. When we were in high school, Maria was always...a boy magnet. She had request coming from left to right from football players, Basketball players, hell even the chess club! I didn't think I would ever stand a chance! I might as well face the music...she does like me. It's all in the Diary. I don't know why I was in denial all this time but that's over. Maria needs a support system and I want to be that. I'm going to be that...

*Maria POV*

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I really think that I should go back to America now that I'm pregnant...I feel that I'll be safer there. I don't know what Michael and Slash did to Lamar but, I hope it was enough to get him to leave us alone. I don't want him to hurt me or this baby. Even though I'm really not ready to be a mother. A single mother at that. All I want is to feel loved and to love someone. Is that too much to ask? I thought I had what I had been looking for in Lamar but...he didn't love me like I know Michael can. Look at me! I'm a fucking mess! My once perfect skin is now all bruised and scared. Michael isn't gonna want me and I have a child on the way! I'll just be a burden, like I have been for years. He's too good for me anyway. I'm no longer pure. I've been tainted by that monster and I'll never be able to get back what he stole from me! That girl Michael invited to the concert tomorrow night just left so, I think I'll go lay down. I'm not feeling too good right now. I've learned that Morning sickness doesn't just occur in the morning...I'm not even far enough along! But, the doctor said something about it being different for different women and that some woman start with the morning sickness right after they find out! I guess I was one of the 'lucky' ones...