Disappear, Part Two

Journal Entry: ?

I remember seeing Dad on the bridge again. He was jumping off over and over. I couldn't get to him as if there was an invisible wall in front of me.

Then I woke up and cried. After these many years I still miss him. I just wish I could talk to him and tell him all about the amazing things that happened. However I can't because he is dead. I guess that the grief after all of these years stayed. Later I cried myself to sleep.

I went downstairs to eat breakfast with everyone. We didn't talk to each other at all.

I got myself dressed in my uniform. I got my gun. Then we rode to the mine we took back.

When we got there I saw that it was being rebuilt. People were starting to dig in the mine.

I helped guard also. But I noticed something odd about the workers. They were unclean and they looked ill. Maybe because being a miner did pay poorly.

However when we would make eye contact with them they would get scared and just go back to work. I wonder why.

I told that worker to come with me. We sat and spoke in my office.

They looked frightened. They looked filthy and like they hadn't eaten much. Their left hand was shaking too.

"I am not here to hurt you. I just want to talk. Why are you scared of me?" I asked.

"It's because.... because I was forcefully brought to work here. Your kind of people kidnapped me. They took everything from me. They even murdered people who tried to escape." They said,

I was just speechless after they said that. There was some silence between us.

"Are you hungry?" I asked.

"I am very hungry." They replied.

I gave them an apple.

"Okay so thank you for telling me this. But for now you must go back to the mine and not speak of what happened here."

I said and we walked out.

Later I walked back in my office. I just wanted to think. I really don't understand why John would ever allow this to happen. Why kidnap? However I knew one thing, I didn't want to be around this environment of cruel people. I didn't want to partake in it either. I needed to disappear. I can't explain why to the Morgan's.

If I wanted to disappear I would have to do it tonight.

I rode back to The Mansion and gathered my things: Dad's and Mum's journal, his revolver, my revolver, money and other things I may need.

I put on a black buttoned coat dress and laced up boots.

I snuck out of The Mansion. Hopefully no one noticed. However I needed to be careful, I can't come into an interaction with them.

I walked to Glasgow. It was very quiet. As I walked I prayed that God would protect me from harm.

Later I got really tired so I climbed on a rooftop and slept on it. It was just like laying in the middle of the road. I still fell asleep.