Radio Active

Section 13

I open my eyes and they feel stiff and sore off my crying session last night. I look in front of me and see black, I move my head backwards a bit then see numerous black squares on some flesh, I then realise that it's Eric. I also realise that the thing my head is on is Eric's shoulder and that his arms are still wrapped around me. I'm not sure what the time is but I decide to snuggle back into the crook of his neck and wait until he is awake or until he slaps me in the face.

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I wake up being gently shuck, I open my eyes and I'm still in Eric's strong arms. I place my hand on his chest and push myself up, my eyes still sore from crying when I open them just a bit wider.

His grey eyes full of concern when he looks at me, I try and give him a smile but nothing happens. I look away from his sympathetic gaze and stare at the carpeted floor. He rubs my back, gently and slowing, the gesture is comforting and I feel the edges of my mouth move up a tiny bit.

"Is that a smile I see?" Eric moves his head to look at me, I can't help but laugh a little at his comment. "There is it!" Eric moves his hands and begins to tickle me. I squirm and kick out at him out of habit, he stops tickling me and moves his hands back to the position they where in before, around my waist and over my knees.

I've never been this close to Eric and as I thought yesterday it feels right like I've been here for ages, it feels comfortable like we've known each other for years but in reality we've only known each other for one not even that really.

"How are you feeling?" Eric asks after a while of silence, I think about my answer wanting to give him a truthful one instead of the lie I tell everyone, 'I'm fine.'

"Heavy and tired. But I feel better but I just, I just, I.... I don't know really." I say getting confused.

"Okay well you know you can tell me anything, right?" Eric looks at me and I shrug and shake my head.

"I know I can but I find it hard to open up to people about what happened, more for my sake as you saw what happens first hand when I pour my heart and tell the truth." Eric looks away from me and nods slightly.

"Yeah I know and I won't tell anybody what I heard last night, I promise." I weakly smile at Eric as I do trust him for a reason I don't know.

"Thanks." He doesn't reply and we sit in silence for a little while longer. "I'll tell you one day." I admit breaking the silence, Eric glances at me not sure what I'm talking about. I continue, "About what happened, I'll tell you fully. I'm.... I'm just not ready yet. I hope you understand that as I do trust you." Eric scoffs a little and wraps his arm around my waist tighter, pulling me into him more.

"I understand take your time and when your ready I'll be here." I smile at his answer and look at him scanning his features to see if he actually means it.

Eric is very good looking, hot in my opinion but his personality is the thing that people don't like. They think he's horrible and I hate it when people call him that because I know and see a different side of him a caring, funny, approachable side whereas people see intimidating, ruthless and just down right mean in him and it's all wrong, even though he can be like that towards me sometimes.

I think back to initiation, when I first transferred I was scared of him when I first saw him, as all I saw was an intimidating scary Dauntless Leader who could kill me with his pinkie. To make matters worse I stood on his foot while getting the knifes, but he didn't seem bothered he just laughed and told me to watch where I was going. I wasn't one of the best initiates, but he always helped me when I struggled, he never used to help any of the others.

"What are you deep in thought about?" His voice brings me back to reality.

"Initiation." I say quickly, Eric laughs.