WHY?
Why does it still hurts?
After months of journey of moving forward, why does it still hurt?
Im suffocating, as if a big rock was on my chest, as if I was getting stabbed multiple times, over and over, and over again.
A pain that never goes away, a wound that never heal.
This is the wound you have given me, hehe.
Wound that not only stays, but made it untouchable, even for me.
A trauma, that if I loved again, I would double of this immeasurable pain, it must be easy to be carefree and simple minded.
I hate you. I hope you'd just dissapear in my life or I could just dissapear and be in a place where you didn't exist.
Please dont come back, I'll never get near you again.
I would never let my guard down.
Im actually impressed to myself, for being strong all this time.
After all this pain, I could still stand up in front of you, I've endured that.
And I hate you, for being so insensitive.
I fucking hate you for ignoring my feelings as if it was invisible.
You know it wasn't.
I hate you, you are the worst.
Dont ever come back to my life.
You are not really special. You were just a normal, boring guy, insensitive as fuck and only cares about himself.
I know you've been really kind to me lately, but i don't think it wouldn't evenbe enough to compensate for all the pain, you gave me.
You were the first person, and you given me a pain that would stay forever in me.
I hate u.Maybe its all on me and im selfish to say all of this, but it exist.
The pain exist.
