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Yesterday I packed my bags and went out to buy last-minute Christmas gifts for my family. I had packed my painting stuff, clothing and more, and was ready to leave. My father did not tell me who the friend was going to come and pick me up, but I assume that the friend is going to tell me if, if not then I will have to call him later today. 

Today is December 22th and my clock says 1:31 PM, the clock is ticking as I clean the rest of the apartment. The radio is on playing Christmas songs as Love is sleeping by the window. I fold the rest of my clothes and put them away, I did not hear a car pulling up in front of the apartment, and I did not hear someone walking up the stairs, but I did hear them knocking on the door to my apartment. I stop what I am doing when I hear the knock, I see Love lifting its head at the sound of the knock"Wonder if it is my father's friend" I step over to the door and open it, I am shocked at who is standing outside my doorstep. "Yoongi?" It is Yoongi, standing right there in his coat, black shoes and messy hair with snow in it "Hey M/N..." I knock myself back to reality and step aside to let him in "What are you doing here?" Yoongi steps inside and smiles "I am here to pick you up, your father asked me to bring you home- or I begged him to let me pick you up" I stand still with my hands resting on each side of my hip "I- I do not understand?" Yoongi smiles and takes his shoes off seeing that I just have mobbed the floor "M/N..." He says as he steps closer to me, just as he is close enough he reaches out for my hands "I do not know if you are over me if you are still in love with me if you have love left to be with me again, but I have kept your promise. Since you left town, I have been trying to become a better person for you, but also for myself. I have come so far in progress that people around me are telling me that I have become a better person, at first I did not care about their opinion, I cared about how I felt. If I did not feel like I was becoming a better person I knew that you would not see it either" 

I listen to him speak, speaking about how he really has been reflecting and taking my words into action. I still see and hear the man I fell in love with, but this Yoongi is more aware of his mistakes and actions and knows that getting improvements from other people means nothing to him, it is all about how he feels about his thoughts, feelings and actions. How it makes him feel to have said those words and felt so angry at me for wanting to follow my dream? That is an improvement in my eyes. 

"I have even talked to my friends and said sorry for acting the way I did, I felt like I had to say sorry to them so that I could move forwards and become the person I want to be... I am not asking you to love me like you used to, but I am asking you to love the better me and love the person I am becoming thanks to you..." His voice is shaky, almost as if he is scared of what I am about to say when he is done talking. 

"Yoongi... I see that you are becoming a better person, I see that you are not the same person as before. I love the person you were, and I am going to love the person you are trying to become as long as previous actions are not going to repeat. I am going to give you all of my love in return for your love" I take a small step closer to him and lean my head closer to his so that our forehead connects "I am proud of you Yoongi, I really am" His hands are cold from the weather outside but it feels nice to be cooled down, his left-hand reaches up to my cheek and gently rub it as a smile grows on his lips "I am also proud of me too M/N... I love you so much" 

The clock ticks and a bell rings, it is now 2 PM and Yoongi tells me that it is time to leave before it gets too dark. He brings my bags down, I turn off the lights and pick Love up who Yoongi had wrapped up into a blanket he had in the car. I put my wallet into my jacket and pull the keys out to lock the door. The door is now locked and as I walk down the stairs I see Yoongi hold the door for me to walk over to the car. "Do you have to lock the front door?" I turn around and throw the keys "Almost forgot, please do it for me" I step inside the car and put on the seatbelt, Yoongi is trying to lock the door for me, he then runs over to the car due to the cold weather in Rome. When he gets inside the car his hair is yet again messy and has bits of snow laying on top. He looks so happy even if it is cold. He starts the car so that we will not catch a cold. He drives off to the road and off we are to my hometown. 

During the ride, I look out of the window to the car, I take notice of how naked the trees are, how there only are a few leaves on the branches the rest is on the ground or long gone under the snow. The sound of people talking coming to the radio fills the car since none of us is speaking to each other, it is not an awkward silence, but more comfortable silence. Yoongi is concentrating on driving but from the corner of my eye, I can see his right hand rubbing itself on the wheel like it feels uncomfortable. The breath rhythm coming from Yoongi is not even, it is like he is trying to say something but continues to stop himself from opening his mouth, his right-hand leaves the wheel and holds it in the air before finally taking my left hand in his right. The feeling of holding his hand is nice, they are still a bit cold but they are slowly getting warmer. I let him hold my hand, and I secretly smile when I feel his thumb rubbing my skin, but I guess not saying anything makes him unsure if I like it or not. When he tries to pull away I quickly tighten my grip on his hand "If you let go I will kill you" I continue to look out of the window, but in the reflection I see him smiling.

I love that gummy smile of his... I love him...