Love Fool | YoongixMalereader | ✔

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I agreed with my aunty and father that maybe it would be best to stay with Yoongi for a few days or perhaps a week, just so that my mother would not blow up one night and kidnap me into the church. I had told my aunty and father goodbye by the door and left a note for my mother that if she ever wanted to return her words about Yoongi and me, she was welcome to call or send a letter. But Yoongi and I drove into town on his motorcycle around midday to buy some food and some other stuff that we needed, we even ran into Namjoon in the bookstore, and we talked for a bit before he had to leave for something.

"What are you thinking about dear?" Yoongi asks behind me, he walks up behind me and places his hands on my shoulders before he gives me a soft massage. I let out a deep sign that almost sounded like a moan, and I can only say that because he stops for a second before he massages even harder. I grin as I get an idea of what he wants out of the massage now, the sound shocked him, so now he wants to see if it was a one-time thing. I thought it was but when he pushes a spot on my shoulder blade that same moan comes out, I want to step away from the touch before it leads to something, but it feels so good to get that annoying spot away "If... If you continue Yoongi, it might go wrong" I say, I feel Yoongi stop massaging and wraps his arms around me as he leans closer to my ear "And what if I want that kind of wrong?" I turn around and wrap my left arm around his neck, we are lucky that no one can see what we are doing through the tall window. "Be careful of what you wish for" "Oh I am in no need for being careful" 

As tempting, as it is to annoy him by grabbing him by the sacks I know that the last time I did it he looked like he was around to cry because my nails almost were putting pressure on his sacks that was causing him pain. He gave me zero kisses for a whole day. "I know what you are thinking about, and I am just saying no" Yoongi says almost with pain in his voice, I just laugh at him, I get the pain I do but it is so funny to see how that kind of pressure on his sacks almost will make him cry. "How about we go and make some food?" I look at the time behind him and see that the time is 5:43 PM I nod and follow him back to the kitchen. 

The plan was originally to stay at his place for a little while until the situation at home was better with my mother. But those weeks turned into months, he and I have been together for 3 months and everything seems to be going so great. I have been performing jazz, classic music and more at many restaurants, and people seem to love it. I take my bike that my father came and left at Yoongi's place two months ago and use it to go around to play. I was thinking about joining 'Sapienza University of Rome' but I have not yet told Yoongi about it I have kept it to myself.

"Have you sent in your application yet my son?" My father says over the phone, I shake my head even if I know that he can not see me "No, I wish to tell him first" My father signs heavily, I can imagine the face he makes at my response. I know what he is about to say, and sure enough, he says it: "You are not supposed to hold back from your dreams just because of your boyfriend my son" "I know father, I am just scared that I will have to leave our relationship behind. I do not wish to leave him, father" I pull the thin blanket over my knees that are pressing against my chest. I feel how my head starts to lower, and my eyes close "Talk to him, he will understand. He is a good man he will understand that you want to study music and art in Rome" I nod, I know that Yoongi will understand but I am still scared of losing him. "I will try, but maybe I should think-" "No do not think, do not plan what to say so that you will hurt yourself, just speak to each other"  Again I nod, he is right I need to speak to him and not plan it out like a perfect trip. 

I hang up with my father after some time, and soon after Yoongi comes home, I do not turn around instead I continue to look out of the tall window. I know that he is confused normally I talk up to him and give him a hug. "Hey, I am home dear" He comes over and pulls the chair next to me closer to sit down, he leans over to kiss me on my cheek, and his fingers merge up with mine "Can I tell you something?" I ask as I still look outside, from my right I can see him nod "I have been thinking about studying music and art" Yoongi chuckles "And? Sounds like a good idea dear" I turn to look at him. His smile makes my heart melt and I can feel the guilt of maybe tearing down his smile, but I can not let the guilt overstep my dream as much as I love Yoongi.

"Yoongi... I want to study music and art in Rome" Before I even can look away his smile slowly falls "What? Are you going to leave?" I know the moment he lets go of my hand I have broken his heart. "It has always been my dream..." His face almost turns stone cold, and the sentence that comes out of his mouth breaks my heart.

"So it is your dream to leave me? Just for some music and art?" My whole world falls apart...