The Devil Who Wears My Eyes

16 : The Louder Hush

I think I fainted when I heard the door clicking. It is unlocked. It means Tito Jeremy can get inside my room and possibly do all the dirty things to me that is inside his head. I am all naked still because of Leopold. I do not know what to do. Naghihingal pa rin ako dahil sa ginawa ni Leopold ngunit ibang hingal na ngayon ang nararamdaman ko. Takot na takot kong kinapa ang kumot at itinabon iyon sa kahubdan ko. Mayamaya pa ay narinig ko ang pagsara ng pintuan. How it clicked telling me it is locked made me totally insane. I could not even control my tears.

"Ariella..." Tito Jeremy's voice. Nasa may pintuan pa lang siya ay gumagapang na sa katawan ko ang pandidiri. "You even got prepared. You are sexy. Did not expect that a blind woman can have an hourglass figure because the stereotypes...they're just bedridden and are not capable of most things. Ariella, you are a beauty. Always a beauty. It is a shame that you can no longer see me as you kiss me."

"I will kill you." Paulit-ulit kong sambit. Humihikbi dahil alam kong wala na akong pag-asa.

I will be raped again tonight. This devil will take advantage of me again and I will regret either way. If I say no, I was forced to say yes, the regret is always on me. The dirt is always on me. The pain is always on me. The trauma will always be in me.

Sandali pa siyang naglakad nang marahan papalapit sa akin hanggang sa maramdaman ko na ang napakalaswa niyang pagtingin sa akin. Even his very unclear shadowy figure in my eyes, those that I can see being close to darkness, it is making me tremble. I can feel the lust and just straight fucked up intentions.

"You are naked. Hinintay mo ba talaga ako para makipaglaro ka sa akin, Ariella? Hmm, sa tingin ko ay hindi ko na kailangang ipag-utos sa iyo ang mga gagawin, hindi ba? You must know a lot of things before that I thought you. Sa tingin ko naman ay hindi mo iyon nakakalimutan."

"I will kill you. I will kill you if you lay your hands on me again. I will fucking kill you."

I heard his little chuckle. His nasty chuckle that almost made me throw up. Just that...it made me sick.

"Your Daddy told you, didn't he? He told you I really am going to stay as he marry that woman. She is young. Too young to be your stepmom, doesn't she? But that is okay. We can have a threesome. My niece, my sister's husband's wife...your stepmom. That will be so fucking good. Just the thought of you...you being the lamb and her the lioness side by side moaning is making me excited."

I am cursing him inside my mind. He is sick. He needs to go and fix his rotting brain. How can he think of these nasty things about me and Mommy Kayla? As I curse him inside my head, I felt his hand grabbing my chin. It is not as hard as how Leopold did it, but it is undenyingly gross. Tito Jeremy is gross. His whole existence is trash.

"Or...pwede naman nating isali ang Daddy mo. Hmm?"

"Fuck you!"

Inuntog ko ang ulo ko sa kaniya. Malakas iyon at alam kong ilong niya ang tinamaan. Nang dahil doon ay agad akong nakatikim ng sampal at agad na nahila ang kumot na nakatakip sa kahubdan ko. Ramdam na ramdam ko kakaagad ang kakaibang tingin niya sa akin bago ko maramdaman muli ang pagtawa niya sa may tainga ko.

"You're wet...so wet, Ariella. Were you waiting for Tito? Hmm?"

I was fucking with a demon, yet you are the kind of demon I want to kill.

"Touch me or I will-"

"Scream? You had all the opportunities to scream before but you did not, right? You liked how we played back then, Ariella. Admit it. Tell me you liked it."

Umiling ako nang umiling habang ang mga luha ko ay hindi ko na mapigilan. Ang bigat sa dibdib. Ang hirap huminga lalo na at nararamdaman ko na ang daliri niyang naglalakbay sa balikat ko na para bang talaga namang dahan-dahan akong pinapatay. Sinasadya niya iyon dahil nakikita niyang ayaw ko.

"I will kill you."

I did not care if I am repeating it a thousand times as he started touching me. His lips are already on my boobs a minute later. Magkabilaan pa. I could not scream. Naging bato na lang ako dahil sa takot. Hindi na ako makagalaw habang kung ano-ano na ang ginagawa ni Tito Jeremy sa akin. Diring-diri na ako sa sarili ko na bawat segundo ay pinapanalangin ko na lang na mamatay na ako. I can't live anymore. I'm so dirty.

"Sweeter, Ariella. You taste sweeter than before..." he chuckled. He pulled my hair, he slapped my butt cheeks as he made me lay down. Pinadapa niya ako nang marahas. Ngayon ay nakatuwad na ako at alam kong hayok na hayok ang mga mata niya.  "Fucking beautiful, Ariella. Yes, do it. Fuck. Do it. Ass up, face down."

He got both my hands on my back while he holds it. Tahimik lamang akong umiiyak dahil alam kong mayamaya lamang ay mangyayari na ang nasa isip ko. Hindi nga nagtagal ay halos ikasuklam ko na ang sarili ko dahil nararamdaman ko ang pagkalalaki niyang naglalabas-masok sa akin.

"Tangina..." he hissed. "Never thought you are this tight, Ariella. I should have done this years ago."

I will kill you. I will kill you. I will kill you.

Years ago, he never put his manhood inside of me. He just made me kiss it, made me look at it, forced me to touch it. And now, he is inside of me. I wanted to scream. Surely, Daddy or Nanay Meera will hear it but my system...it can't function. I am too scared, too grossed out to even speak especially now that he is thrusting inside me the way he likes it and I am just a voiceless and sightless woman. A dirty, blind, and now can't even speak woman.

I will kill you, Tito Jeremy. I won't let you leave again this house still breathing.