°•Since I Left•°☆Marauders/ Golden Trio☆

◇《Chapter 21》◇

Tw: this chapter will have un@living so please be aware and stay safe

◇《Monas POV》◇

Nothing.

Its all I felt for months.
Well there was sadness, grief, anger, pain, but that's all.

I saw my children get lowered into the ground. No parent should ever see that.

I've had constant nightmares every time I sleep. Its always the same nightmare, they say that its my fault. Every. Single. Time.

Everyone said that it wasn't my fault, but if my children say that while visiting my dreams it really means that its my fault right?

Every time I close my eyes I see their lifeless bodies.

I haven't been sleeping normally, usually pull all-nighters. I go for days without sleep only because of the nightmares.

I don't speak to anyone, I cant even look at my darling twins because I see Dallas and Jupiter in them, in their eyes, hair, smile, everywhere. I aswell cant look into the mirror because I see them in me and it hurts more than anything.

Everyone had been trying to talk to me, trying to help me sleep, eat but its all pointless.

The last nightmare had me thinking for days.

Dallas and Jupiter were in there sitting on the ground playing around. I came in and they stopped, they looked angry at me. My children said that I should feel the pain they felt, that I should pay for what I did. And honestly I've been think about it. Paying for what I did...

.. and I will. Today.

I have been writing these letters for everyone in the house, apologies, telling how sorry I am, how much I love some of them.

I wrote a will aswell.

I think that I'm ready to see them and pay for what I did to them, for not saving them.

The drowning sensation hit me again after years.

I want to go up for air but I don't. I have to suffer for them.

I hear a banging on the door and pleas for me to open the door but I ignore it.

Memories flood me, all of the ups and downs.

I'm drowning again and I don't come up for air.

But this time its different than the others.

..This time I'm actually drowning

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''Ma'? Why are you here?''

''Wait mom is here? But its to soon.''

''Dallas, Jupiter?'' I freeze as I enter a blinding white room.

I sprint to them and bring them into a hug.

''I'm so sorry, I'm sorry. I should of been there sooner, i should of been there to save and protect you. I understand why you hate me, why you both are mad at me..''

''Ma' its ok, we don't blame you. You did what you could at the moment, we know that you never wanted this to happen.'' Dallas softly spoke into my ear as I broke down sobbing.

I was finally with them. They are safe and forgive me.

I will protect my darling twins for here. And they have Reggie and Casper, they will live happier lives without me there, with being protected.

Dallas and Jupiter didn't have that there, thats why I'm happy to be here,

To protect my children.

523 words.

Hello! This is our last official chapter, and an epilogue after this.I want to thank you all for your support and love, this was a great journey.

Like always

Stay safe, eat, drink water, YOU matter!!!

Till other times <3