𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

29 | HE ISN'T GONE

I walk through the halls with my head down. It's everywhere. Everywhere I go, someone is talking about it.

I walk to the now familiar table that the others sit at. They are all immersed in a conversation as I sit down.

"I know, it's crazy," Hyunjin says sadly.

They all look at me "Hey, where did you run off to Friday? We haven't heard from you all weekend" Felix asks.

"Y-Yeah I left the party early, I didn't feel too good. Over the weekend—my parents heard what happened and kept me locked up" I lied straight out of my teeth and they frown, believing every word.

"Mine too, it's horrible," Jeongin says, popping a grape into his mouth and chewing it.

"I wonder who did it, Damon has a lot of enemies," Seungmin says and everyone agrees.

"My parents have been extra protective since the news broke," Jeongin says and the others say theirs have been too.

"He was douche though, we have to admit" Felix spoke up and Hyunjin reaches over, hitting him playfully.

"Felix we can't speak like that on the dead," He says seriously "He'll come to haunt you" This is where the group laughs loudly.

"How do you feel about this Jisung?" They look at me and I freeze.

"I-I don't know"

Hyunjin gives me a sad smile "Look at it this way, he won't fuck with you anymore"

I look down and nod. They end up going on about other things but I was stuck there, on the same topic in my head.

No, Damon won't fuck with me anymore physically but mentally I feel it. His hands, his breath on my neck, making me nauseous to the point I can't eat. I hear his voice and when I close my eyes I see him laying there.

Anyone would be happy to know their bully and harasser is gone but for me, he isn't gone.

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I stare at the food in front of me, looking at it makes me want to throw up but my stomach yearns for it, for something.

I move it around and it seems to catch my parent's attention.

"Is everything okay son?" My dad spoke up, the first time in a while that he's asked this question.

I look up and nod slowly "Yeah" My voice was weak, mostly because for most of the day I kept quiet. Like I use to do.

I look back down but I felt their eyes on me "Is it because of the boy that passed, are you friends with him?"

I shook my head "No" they didn't get onto me for my making eye contact.

"It's a horrible thing that happened, and at a party. I think this town is changing for the worse" My dad says as he continues to eat.

"Jisung" I look to my mom "If something was wrong you would tell us, wouldn't you?"

I nod "Of course mom"

She gives me a small smile "Good, now stops playing with your food. You need to eat something"