Broken soul. (UF! Mettaton x Reader)

Chapter 16:

Trigger warning! This chapter contains suicidal thoughts! If this is something you are not comfortable reading, please do NOT read this!
However, if you're still continue reading, despite my warnings, you do this at your own risk. Thank you and now enjoy.

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Y/N POV
A few hours have passed, and Mettaton had left you to do something important as he told you. So once again you were chained to a bed. However, this time your cuffs were rather soft. He wouldn't use metallic chains on you as far as you could tell. But you didn't want to be here! You didn't want to put me in this bed all alone, without having any plan, or any way to escape! No! He didn't want to end up as one of his little puppets what ever you are for him!
He couldn't move much. Fortunately, he only change your wrists to the bed, leaving your legs, waste and torso free from any chance.
He tried sitting up, using all the energy you had. You didn't want to just lay there and wait for him to return home from where ever this robot went. So you tried your best to finally set up. Your whole back is sore from laying around so much. Who could blame you? Do you have been captivated in this positions for the last few days. Of course you wanted to do something different for once.
Once again, you tried sitting up, only to fail miserably. Maybe you should just give up? Maybe it was better that way, wasn't it? You wouldn't be able to escape. No matter how hard you would try, the robot would always catch you and bring you back. And even if you manage to escape His grasp, there was still the scientist out there, I would use you to experiment again and again. There was no way for you to escape!
By thinking about it further, you came to the realisation, that you didn't even have friends out there to rely on. The only person you knew, we were talking flower, I go to monster and a skeleton who wanted to buy you. None of those people were any good to help you. Besides the robot didn't look weak! I found it actually. This metallic man looked like he could crush you without any hesitation, and without using any strings, if you didn't play by his rules. Thinking about this further, make you lose hope.
Since you were bored, he started to look around his room. Despite it being dark, you could see the frames of something. You could see the posters of the many.  Goth-Rock, Post, punk, heavy metal, death, metal, and dark with bands, which were scattered all over the wall. Furthermore, you were able to see the silhouette of his electric guitar, casually leaning against the wall. Do you want it, if Mettaton was even able to play the guitar, what is it just existed for decoration purposes. Maybe you should ask him about it.
Your stomach growls. The medication's must not work anymore, you assumed. When was even the last time, I gave you something to eat? How long has he been gone now? A few hours must have been passed by already. Why are you have been laying here, drowning in your own thoughts, which were haunting your mind Minutes after minute. Those thoughts, which were eating your brain bit by bit, second four seconds.  Those thoughts, what made you drown in dark, despair, agony, and sadness, that no matter how hard you try. You wouldn't be able to change your situation. There was no way out of here and even, if you were able to free yourself, you wouldn't come very far. maybe he didn't lock the door. And even if you didn't come on the scientist spot you and do far worse things with you
And you were way too tired to run away. Your body was lacking of energy since you didn't eat much. How much should you eat? No one gave you the option to do that and the only thing, the robot and the lizard monster gave to you, what is purple pills, what taste of bitter Into a burning like fire in your throat. You remember how it felt to swallow those medicines. It was so hard and it felt so painful. And after you have been swallowing them, your feeling of hunger was completely gone like it had never existed in the first place. Not even humans would do something that cruel, although you weren't exactly sure. Those filthy beasts have done mini cruel things to you in the past. Torturing you physically mentally until you broke, doing all, they want it and succumbing to the needs and wants.
Of course, they didn't do anything sexual!   " who would touch such a dirty little thing like you?", The words I could, in your mind, giving you a slight headache. They were right after all. Hu in the entire universe. What a waste time on you, I wasn't even worth any attention? Your parents had left you, giving you turn off an age.
And all the adoptive families, they have given you too, abused you, treating you like a piece of trash you were. They have shown you your place. The first years he tried to act against it, fighting for yourself and for your rights. But after many years of torment And abuse, you knew better than that.
You knew, what would happen to you if you disobey their orders. Until this day you felt the   Burns of the cigarettes, and the many beer bottles, they threw at you. You will never forget this pain until your dying day!
The only reason you climbed up this mountain, was for you to end your pitiful suffering. There was nothing left to live for after all. Surely it might  sound stupid and pathetic. But that was, what do you work. Are useless, pathetic human! Nothing and no one would ever change that
And so you jumped down the hole. But your death never came. Instead you are well care, on the ground, when monsters wanted to kill you. You're meant to talking flower come out who guided you through the ruins. And even as you met the scientist and her assistant,  Mettaton , not even them were able to kill you. Not even those gruesome experiments finally ended your pitiful existence.
And maybe nothing much and your existence. Maybe you were doomed to live forever, until someone was merciful enough and end your existence for the good. Maybe the robot would you do that for you. He looks like something or someone, who would kill anything in everyone . So why didn't he murder you? Did his master forbid him to do so because she wanted to do that herself? What did he decide to not kill you out of for you well? You might not find out because he wouldn't tell you. Why would he? violence never made their plan I'll be as to the victims, did they? He didn't remember.
It was cold here! So cold! Everything was cold! Your body was cold and the room was cold. Your throat was dry. But you didn't care about anything. Were you wanted was to die! Again, you started to imagine how someone would stab you to death , the big Butcherknife, pissing through your flesh as if it was paper, your blood splattering everywhere, drowning your environment into dark, red puddles. Your screams for help, and someone to save you, before finally thanking your killer, but they showed some mercy. Such thoughts made you smile and helped you to get through the day. you never told anyone about that, they wouldn't care about you. They were just tell you, to finally do it what is shut up. Nobody wanted to deal with your issues since they had their own bags to carry.
Can you started to think about many things. The cutting, the heating   Everything you did, in hopes it would end your life.
However, nothing worked. It just hurts too much. But you deserve the pain, didn't you? You deserve all the punishment in the world, right?
Nobody could help you! Nobody could, and nobody would care to even help you. Nobody on the surface noticed, but you weren't feeling well. So the monsters wouldn't give a shit about you, what day?

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Iraina