Good Boy

Chapter 36

Charlie's POV

I run out of that house without another word. Oh how I hate him. I hate myself for this, too. All these mixed emotions. One minute, there is no doubt in my mind that Louis likes me. The next minute, I am 100% positive he wants to ruin my life. I wish Louis was like normal guys and just told me all of his feelings without all the unneccassary drama.

I sit in the chair outside their house, not feeling like going home and dealing with my dad's recent attitude. I am too drained at this point with all the unknown feelings crashing toward me this past month and a half. So I ball up in the blue chair and cry myself to sleep, not caring who sees me.

"Charlie? Sweetheart are you alright?" I hear a voice awaken me.

I know this voice, oh I know it way too well. I missed this voice so much. The same sound that left me six years ago. The sound that made me gasp and freeze in place.

"M-mom?" I choke out. My eyes finally open and I feel tears fall down my cheeks and a smile spread across my face. My mom.

"Yes it's me, my love. What's been going on with you lately?" She asks.

Her warmth and presence makes me forget the fact that I haven't seen her in six years. I can't seem to focus on that now. I can only focus on how she firsts comes and gives all her attention to me.

"A-alot mom. This isn't about me though. Where have you been?" I realize that I am still in the blue chair in front of the boys' house and I sit up as my mom whipes my tear stained face.

"I think you know where I've been, darling. I don't have much time to go over my same ol' routine for the past six years. You've been going through a bit, without me. Your dad isn't much help at all, so clueless. But that Louis boy, what's up with him?"

Her words pain me yet comfort me, she understands. Oh how I love my mom.

"Louis Tomlinson," I sigh and rub my eyes "a unique character. He's quite a challenge. But also a very interesting character. He's gorgeous, mom. I wish you could see him. He hurts me though, and I don't know why. He is the true definition of beautiful pain.

"I've been watching him, Charlie. Protect him, as he shall protect you. Stay with him, darling."

"I never was with him so no need for me to stay. Mom, he hurts me. He makes me feel ways I don't usually feel, good and bad and I'm not sure if I like it. I don't need the heartache that is Louis Tomlinson."

"You don't see it now, Charlie. I don't expect you too. But, for my sake, stay with him. No matter what it takes. It will get hard. And you too aren't right for each other but trust me, it will all fit together. He will figure it out. One day," She assures me.

"Mom, I did not want to spend my time with you talking about Louis. It's hopeless," I rub my temples and she rubs my arms.

"It's not hopeless, love. And I came here to talk about that young man. Trust me, I wouldn't do anything to hurt you so trust me on this. I have to go though. Take care, and tell your father to man up," She laughs quietly before she begins to fade away "I love you, Charlie."

"I-I love you too, mom." I whimper through fresh new tears streaming down my face.

"Charlie.." I feel a light shake on my shoulders that frightens me from my sleep. I was sleeping? I was dreaming?

"L-louis?" I shakily reach out for him and he backs up a bit and I feel my heart drop.

"Mhmm. Do you need a ride home? You're obviously exhausted," He pulls out his car keys from his back pocket and holds them up to show that his offer is genuine.

I shake my head and sit up from the blue chair.

"Louis.. you asked me to stay here with you until tomorrow and I declined your offer. But would it be okay if I said I changed my mind? I have a lot to think about and handle right now."

Louis stares at me blankly before finally giving me a confused look and sighing. He nods and walks in the house and leads me inside.

"Can I tell you something? It's random but I need to say this now because me holding everything in lately is really tearing me apart. I have to tell you everything on my mind," I sit on the couch and Louis gives me another confused look before sitting besides me. It's nice to know he's just as confused as I am.

"I like you, Louis. But I hate you at the same time. I should only feel one way towards you but you cause me to feel both. And I think you know this. I had tried kicking you out of my life many many times but you always return and I would be lying if I say I hated that. You're different than the guys I'm used to and the sudden change is really affecting me. You confuse me alot and I don't know if it's something within yourself but you're making your inner problem my inner problem. You say you want me to stay but in the same sentence you ask me to leave you alone. I'm getting mixed signals, Louis and I don't know what to do with it. And I can't tell my father about you until I know you first because honestly, I still don't. My point here, I need to know what you want me to do here. What are you going to do?"

Louis is more shocked than confused now. His body is stiff and his ocean blue eyes are a light grey color now.

"This is a problem within myself. I am ruining you, I know. It is not my intention but I am. I never felt toward a girl how I feel toward you and this is kind of a crappy feeling to be completely honest. You're the first girl I'm actually taking things.. slow with. So that's difficult to deal with. That's why I need advice from the rest of the boys when it comes down to you. I guess what I'm trying to say here is.. I kind of just want you to like me. Because I actually kind of give a shit about your opinion. I always hate you for making me like you. That's why there is mixed signals. And us, is something I can't start because I know I can't finish."

Louis has never opened up to me this much within three minutes. By how uncomfortable he seems, he has never opened up this much at all. But, I feel so much better knowing a bit more information behind Louis' actions.

"So.. why won't you.. date me? Make us official?" I hesitate asking.

"There isn't much of an us to make official. And I'm not ready for that. I don't think I will be anytime soon. I'm used to seeing girls for one night, not being stuck with the same one for over a month. Not that I really mind," he shrugs "I can only go up to friends with benefits, which you obviously have a problem with."

I do have a problem with that. I already want to storm out all over again. But my mom really meant what she was saying about him. I have to take this ride, whether I want to or not.

"Friends with benefits?" I repeat.

Louis nods.

"Then so it is," I gulp.

The things I do for this boy and my mom.

Charlie's mother! I threw her in this chapter since mothers day was yesterday so I thought since it's summer for them and mothers day is in spring, I would just feature Charlie's mother in this instead of a mother's day chapter. If you guys want a everyones POV on mothers day then comment and I can make a seperate story where I put holiday chapters (that dont go in the storyline but still have the characters) for yall! Oh, and I changed the title and cover! I didn't like the last title anymore so I changed it but the plot of the story is still the same (: i might change the cover again lol. Love you guys x
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