Behind walls

chapter three

Julie POV

It's already friday.
The past few nights I've been clubbing.
I just love to go out, have fun and meet new people.
I know that it's not the perfect way to cope but I feel better when I drink so why not.
I decided that it's best if I don't go out the next two nights since it's race weekend and everything. I have to support my brother.
It's my first time since I think four years in Monaco. When I was younger I loved the track here. It was something special you know? Like driving through the city and everything.
Sometimes I really miss racing and also racing weekends with my brother.
"Hey Julie there you are. We were wondering if you would even come today after the last few nights", Lando says as he sees me.
"Haha very funny. I feel great to be honest. Ready to support my brother"
"And what about me? Am I nothing to you?"
"Of course you are Lando. You're still my best friend"
"I know. But hurry up now there are press conferences. They're funny. I got you a seat in the front row if you want"
"Sure"
I follow him into a large room. There are people seated everywhere. Lando wasn't lying when he said that with the seat in the front row. The seat is directly in front of where the drivers will be sitting. 
He guids me there before running off. Next to me are some journalists. I think they haven't noticed me yet so I just don't talk to them. 
Instead I take my phone out and check my social media accounts.
I take a quick photo of myself and post it on my story with the caption: 'press coference'
As I like some pictures the drivers come in and everbody welcomes them. I put the phone into my pocket and start listening to them.
"...your races?", someone asks.
God that question was long I stopped listening after about two words.
The question is for Charles but he doesn't look like he understood it.
The others start laughing at him a little and he just keeps looking confused at the guy who just asked the question.
The guy repeats his question but Charles keeps his confused face.
"Man just name your five worst races"
"Ahh why didn't you tell me that earlier god"
He starts naming a few and then stops.
He looks at the others waiting for their answers but they start laughing again.
"Ah the question was just for me?", he asks.
"Yes". Lando and Pierre are laughing to the point now where they hold their bellys.
I start laughing too.
Charles notices me laughing and starts smiling too.
The rest of the press conference goes by relativly well.
"Finally that took ages", I say as I see Pierre.
"I know but it's part of my job so I don't complain about it. Want to grab lunch together?"
"Sure"
"Oh but Charles and his brother Arthur are coming too"
"Arthur?Okay, sure." I haven't seen Arthur since what feels like ages.
"Let me get my sunglasses and a hat. Wait here"
I nod and just stand there until I hear someone approaching me.
"Oh my god Julie", Arthur greets me with a big hug.
"I didn't know you're back"
"Yeah just came home a month ago and just moved in with Pierre"
"Oh that's great. Will you be watching the race this weekend?"
"Yes that's actually what I'm here for"
"Will you be watching mine too?"
"Of course I will"
"Okay let's leave. I'll drive", Pierre says who just came back from his drivers room.
We walk to his car and Arthur and I sit in the back while Charles and Pierre sit in the front.
I tell Arthur everything about the journey and he tells me about his girlfriend.
Arthur and I were very close because our brothers were racing together. 
We often spent our time together and watched races together.
I also raced with him for about two years. 
There were evenings when the four of us would watch movies together or play some games. 
We always had so much fun together. I even told Arthur about my crush on his brother once.
He was mad at me for four weeks and didn't talk to me.
I was so sad these weeks but he apologized to me and we made a rule: Don't fall in love with Charles.
I had no choice but to agree.
The car stops and we get out. 
We walk into a small coffeshop. They have a large choice of sandwiches. 
I get one with just vegtables since I prefer to not eat too much meat.
We sit down and eat our lunch.
The boys start discussing about the race so I take a look outside.
The people who walk by look genuenly happy. 
There's even a girl in a ferrari shirt.
"Julie. Hello?", Arthur asks me.
"What sorry."
"Are you going to wear a ferrari shirt this weekend?", Arthur asks me repeating his question.
"Why?"
"Come on for me. Please? And of course for my lovely brother"
"Are you okay with that?", I ask looking at Pierre. He just nods.
"Yeah sure if you give me one"
"I'll give one to you tomorrow"
I have to admit that I'm the biggest ferrari fan since I'm a little kid.
We finish eating and head to the track again.
We split up because Charles and Pierre have free practise so Arthur shows me around a little.

"Hey movie night at my place if you guys want", Lando says.
It's 5pm and everyone's done with interviews and freepractise.
"Yeah sure", Pierre says.
"We can order some food as soon as everyone's there alright?", Lando asks.
"Sure. See you", says Charles before heading to his car.
I drive to the hotel with Pierre and decide to take a quick shower.
I put on some sweatpants and a hoodie.
Pierre knocks on the door so I hurry up and put my shoes on before leaving my room.

"Finally you're here. We already wanted to start without you guys", Lando says as he opens the door for us.
"You wouldn't", I say jokingly shocked.
We laugh and walk to the living room.
There isn't any space on the couch anymore so I just sit on the floor.
"You can sit here if you want", I hear Charles say and turn around. 
He points to where he's sitting.
"Oh no it's okay don't worry", I say and focus on the TV again.
"I will not let you sit on the floor alone. Let me join you at least"
He gets up from his seat and sits down next to me.
I look at him confused but he just smiles at me.
We decide on a horror film.
At a jump scare I startle and almost start crying since I always do when something scares me like that.
"Everything okay?", Charles asks me.
"Oh no why arre you crying?", he says as he sees me crying.
"I'm sorry. I just got really scared right now."
"Want me to hold your hand?", he asks me jokingly.
"Haha very funny. No it's okay thank you"
He puts his hands up in defend before looking at the TV again.
I continue startling a few times before the film finishes.
"You're such a chicken Julie", Charles says.
"No I'm not the movie was just hella scary", I say a little pissed.
"If you say so", he says smirking before walking away.
The others start talking and I drift off to sleep still sitting on the floor.

Charles POV

It was kind of funny how she always got scared like that.
The movie was scary not gonna lie but I would never admit that.
I'm standing in the kitchen drinking some water when Lando comes in.
"So what's going on between you and Julie?"
"Nothing. Why?"
"Oh just by the way you two looked at eachother but if you say there's nothing then I belive you".
He starts smirking and takes out a glass too.
I brush it off and change the subject.
There's nothing going on. I don't even like her like that. She's just a friend.
Lando and I keep talking for a few minutes before walking back to the living room.
The others are talking there and I see that Julie has fallen asleep on the floor.
She looks so peacefull sleeping like that. Like she has got no worries or anything like that. 
Just genuinely happy.
I wonder when I slept like that the last time.
Probably after the australian grand prix.
I turn around facing the others again and start talking with them.
After some time we agree that it's best if we go to sleep now since tomorrow's quali and everything.
Pierre is just about to wake Julie up when Luisa says: "No let her sleep. She can come with me tomorrow"
"Are you sure?", Pierre asks.
"Yes it's okay. She can sleep in the guest bedroom tonight but someone has to carry her there"
"Sure I'll do it", I say and get up.
They look at me a little confused but brush it off quckly.
I take her up and carry her to the bedroom.
I lay her down and cover her with a blanket before leaving the room again.
Quetly I close the door and walk into the living room again.
Lando starts smirking again.
"What are you laughing about?", I ask maybe a little to harsh.
"Nothing", he says continueing to smile.
I  walk past him and put on my shoes.
Before leaving I say goodbye to everybody and then head to my car.
While driving home I can't stop thinking about this night.
The night she told me she loved me even though she had a boyfriend.
And then she just left.
I get inside my appratment and immediately go to sleep.