Behind walls

chapter seventeen

Julie POV

I wake up and realize that I'm not in my room. Memories rush trough my head from last night. Bowling with my friends and then going back to the hotel. The memory of knocking at Charles' door unsure if this was the right thing to do. Him opening the door and us kissing and making out with resulted in us having sex. I'm unsure how to feel about it. We were just friends until now and after last night there's no chance of going back.
I turn around and look at him. He's still peacefully sleeping and has s pleased look on his face. He's not wearing a shirt so I can see his abs and his body. 
"I can feel you staring", he suddenly says.
My face goes bright red and I say: "Got a problem with that?", trying to sound confident since his eyes are still closed.
"No. But I would like to stare at you too", he says and opens his eyes. He turns his head now too and smiles at me. I can't help but blush even more and smile too.
"I'm going to take a shower now", I say and walk towards the bathroom.
I can feel his eyes following me. As I turn around the corner I hear him saying: "Please come back" and I laugh.
"I really need to shower now Charles"
I can hear him getting out of the bed and walking towards the bedroom.
"Can I join you?", he asks with a smirk.
I nod and he slowly gets in with me. He puts his hands on my waist and pulls me closer to him.  My back is now facing him. He starts planting gentle kisses on my neck over my shoulders to my back. I turn around and give him a kiss but continue showering.
"Oh please Julie. Don't leave me standing here like that", he whines.
"We're already late for breakfast. Carlos and Lando are probably on their way over here.", I say trying not to give in.
"If you say so. But we'll finish this in the evening then", he says and put shampoo on his hand and starts washing my hair. I look at him a little surprised but enjoy the moment. I also wash his hair before we step out again.
"Okay I'm going over to my room to dress myself. See you at breakfast.", I say an take a shirt from him to wear.
I put on my pants from last night and his shirt and open the door. I look up and see Carlos and Lando already standing there looking at me confused and a little shocked.
"Hi guys. See you downstairs. Charles is still in the shower", I say smiling before walking away.
"Chaaaarrlees", I hear Lando yell behind me and walk away laughing.
This is going to be fun.

Charles POV

"Chaaaarrlees", I hear Lando yell.
"Fuck", I mutter under my breath and put the towel around my waist. I step out of the bathroom and see Carlos and him standing there with their mouth open.
"Hey guys", I say and try to overplay the fact that they just saw Julie leaving my room with wet hair and probably a shirt of mine.
"Did you... with Julie?", Lando asks me while Carlos is still trying to process everything.
"Why do you mean?", I ask and turn around to get myself something to wear.
"Oh no don't ask us what we mean you know exactly what we mean. Did you sleep with her?", he asks me and folds his arms in front of his chest.
I remain silent.
"Oh my god. You really had sex with her didn't you?", Lando asks again. He looks kind of mad.
"He finally made his move. Haha", Carlos says and starts jumping around in excitement.
He comes over to me and gives me a hug.
"But please act cool in front of her. Not like you usually do. Just be normal and don't talk to her about it", I say and look at them serious. Carlos nods.
"But Charles I-", Lando starts but I say: "And don't tell anyone. Clear?".
Carlos nods again. 
"But-"
"No buts Lando"
"Okay fine.", he says and looks at me a little mad.
"And what about Pierre? You had sex with his sister mate", Carlos says.
"Let that be my worry. I'll tell him when it's the right time", I say and both of them nod again.
I walk to the bathroom to dress myself and close the door behind me. Now both of them know. But I trust them so it's not that big of a deal. We're all friends so it should be okay for them to know. I dress myself and walk out to see them still sitting there the same as I left them.
"Hungry?", I ask and point to the door and they both get up. We walk outside into the hallway and up to the elevator. In there they remain silent.
"Come on talk to me. Nothing changed", I say.
"Yes it did. She has had a crush on you since she's been ten years old mate. After what happend with Théo she's going to be devastated if you leave her or just play with her feelings", Lando says and my face drops.
"You really think of me like that? The guy that just plays with the feelings of my mates sister. I'm not just some guy that wants her for sex okay? Fuck you", I say and walk out of the elevator. Julie is standing there but I walk past her towards the buffet.
She looks at me surprised and follows me.
"What happend?", I hear her ask Lando but he just keeps walking like I do.
We all get our breakfast and sit down together at a table. Lando and I aren't talking and Carlos tries to get us to speak with eachother again. But I'm not talking to this idiot until he apologizes. I'm defintiely not that bad of a guy. I would never use her for sex or anything like that. I really like her and want a future with her but this idiot has the feeling that I'm going to hurt her. Fuck no.
Suddenly Amelia gets up from the table and leaves.
"Where are you going?", I shout after her.
"Away from you two idiots. This is like preschool. You two are adults so act like it. I'm leaving so you can speak to eachother.", she says and walks away.
We remain silent until Lando looks at me with a guilty face and says: "I'm sorry Charles. I just want to look after her and after everything I'm still her best friend and I want her to be safe. I never wanted to hurt your feelings or anything like that. I just want her to be happy and not to get hurt by anyone"
"I know but I'm not that kind of person Lando. I would never hurt her like that. I feel like something really serious between us. Lando, I want a relationsship with her and not just the sex. I really like her and I would never do that. It hurts that one of the people that knows me best thinks of me like that", I say and look at him serious. I'm still mad at him. Yes, I get his point but that's not an excuse.
"Can you blame me for thinking like that?", he asks getting mad again.
"What?", I ask getting angry now too.
"You can't blame me for thinking like that Charles. She's like a little sister to me and you are not going to hurt her. These past months you've been so cold and so rude to everyone including us. Now I ask you again: Can you blame me for thinking like that?"
"What the fuck Lando. You know what I've been trough these past years. I lost so many people and then Charlotte just left me for another guy and I was all by myself again. Of course I'm going to distance myself from an asshole like you. You're not really helping now are you?"
I'm standing now leaning over the table. For a second I feel like punching him but I suppress the impulse to do so.
Lando's quiet now. 
"I thought you were my friend Lando", I say and get up before walking away. 
What a fucking asshole.