Behind walls

chapter ten

Julie POV

Since these men broke in to the house Pierre isn't leaving me alone again. He always makes sure someone's around. Right now Charles is stying here too. I thought he would go home but he insisted to stay here. Pierre and I don't mind though.
Lando went home to spend some time with Luisa. When she heard what happend she immediately called me. Charles also told Arthur who's now calling me once a day to make sure I'm okay. The men stole nothing precious. Only the playstation and such things but Pierre doesn't care about these things either. 
"Hey do you need something?", says Charles who just opened my door.
"Nope thank you"
"Want to watch a movie? Your brother's gone and I'm even willing to cook for you if you want?"
"Im not saying no to that", I smile and get up slowly from the bed. My face is still a little bruised and the cuts still hurt. One of the cuts is a deep in the sole of my foot. That's why I have crutches.
I'm not allowed to walk again until in two weeks to prevent an infection.
I walk out of my room while Charles holds the door open for me. I walk up to the couch where I let myself fall down. 
"What do you think about some pasta?", he asks me.
"That would be perfect"
"Okay you choose a movie then and I'll cook for you", he says before walking to the kitchen.
While searching for a movie I sometimes take a glimpse at Charles cooking. He looks like he knows what he's doing. 
I continue searching for a movie until I found one. Charles still isn't finished with dinner so I take my crutches and walk over.
"Julie you're supposed to rest", he says as he notices me coming over.
"Come on it's only a few meters. Nothing's going to happen."
I stand next to him and look at the noodles.
"It smells delicious", I say and look at Charles.
"Thank you. And now go sit down again okay?"
"If you say so", I say and turn around annoyed. While turning around I trip and almost fall to the ground but Charles catches me. Our bodys are very close now and I can feel his hot breath against my neck.
"That's what I mean.", he says holding the eye contact.
He let's go off me and tells me to sit down again. I walk over to the couch and lay down. 
My phone vibrates so I take a look at it. It's Pierre, he's asking if I'm fine. I write a short message and tell him that I'm fine and that he doesn't have to worry since Charles is my babysitter for the night. I go to Instagram and take a look at the posts.
The media somehow caught about the accident. There are multiple articles about the burglary and the two men. Some of them even wrote that I'm in a coma or still in the hospital due to my injury. 
I decide to post something on my ig story again. I take a photo of Charles cooking and tag him. I push the button and load it up.
"Okay dinner's finished. Start the film", Charles says as he's walking over to the couch with two plates in his hand. He hands me my plate and sits down next to me and we start watching the movie.

Charles POV

"What are we going to do now?", Julie asks as the film is finished.
"You are going to sleep", I say.
"No why?"
"Because you're supposed to rest"
"Come on I've slept all afternoon long. Let's play a game or something"
"Okay and what game are you talking about"
"Let's play cards", she says.
I get up and get the cards and sit down next to her again. I mix them before handing out seven cards each.
"You cheated", I say as she wins again.
"No I didn't", she says.
"Yes you did"
"No I didn't"
We continue arguing about it until she yawns.
"Are you tired?", I ask her.
"Yes"
"Want to go to sleep?"
"Yes and no. I'm tired but I want to talk to you a little", she says smiling and looking at her feet.
"Okay let's do it like this: We get you to bed and then we can talk there a little until you're asleep. Deal?", I say.
"Deal"
I lift her up and carry her to the bathroom. I walk out and wait outside for her until she's finished. Then I lift her up again and carry her to her bed. I lay her down and cover her with the blanket.
"Would you change something in the past if you had the chance?", she suddenly asks.
I sit down next to her on the bed and ask: "Would you?"
"I don't think so. Everything happens with a reason so why change anything. Well there's one thing I would change if I had the chance to"
"And that would be?", I ask her.
"No first I want your answer.", she says.
"I don't know. I think everything happens with a reason too but sometimes I don't believe in that theory. I wouldn't change anything tho. Everything that happend made me the person I am today and I'm somewhat proud of who I have become so no, I wouldn't change anything. And now what is the one thing you would like to change?"
"You remember the night I came to your appartment to tell you that I love you?"
"Yes". Of course I do how could I froget that.
"I should've told you earlier. Before you got into a relationsship with Charlotte. I should've broke up with Théo and tell you earlier because I never got rid of my feelings for you"
"You didn't?", I ask a little speechless.
"No. Never."
"Why did you leave then without saying goodbye?", I say. Silence follows while I look at my hands.
"I didn't had the courage to come see you again. You said I had to leave when I came by and told you my feelings so I thought it would be better if I didn't see you again. I thought you wouldn't want to see me again so I left. I mean you didn't feel the same for me and that hurt but I couldn't do anything about it"
I sit there speechless. All this time I was mad at her for never saying goodbye but now I find out it was kind of my fault. Just because I was too chicken to tell her I loved her too. Three words could've changed everything.
"Wow Julie I didn't know", I say.
"I know. That's okay don't worry"
We sit there in silence again before I say goodnight to her and leave the room. 
I stay up all night thinking about her words.