Getting Better All The Time

Ace of Hearts

Woah- I haven't logged on to my account in what feels like years. Anyways, here's a little song I wrote a couple months ago

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I'm a romantic at heart, but I fear it may just not be in my cards

My life's not falling apart, but sometimes I feel like I'm just playing a part

When I was younger I asked why life had to be so hard

Now I'm more asking when will it start

All my friends are out living
While I'm simply here sitting

Getting married, going on dates
Not just here staring at an empty plate

Words are hard & thoughts are wise
But one says truth while the other lies

My life's not falling apart, but sometimes I feel like I'm just playing a part

Oh, why does everything just feel so fake?
Why is there glass between me & what's at stake?

Reality is flawed- or maybe just me
For me is obscured what is for them plain to see

The future's uncertain & the present is too,
Somehow I still can't stop thinking of you
"You"
Oh the illusive "You" we all search for- the one who's jagged edges perfectly fit yours

But what if I don't have a "One"?

What if I can't find love- is it even something I am even capable of?

I'm a romantic at heart, but I fear it may just not be in my cards

I'm not incomplete, just a little off-beat

Too bad it's just not for me

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~ Queer_illusion 💕