Getting Better All The Time

Silenced

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No matter what they never listen

I try to be civil, be polite, but it never works

Even screaming and crying they don't care

I'm ignored and left alone with my thoughts

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I am invisible, as they cannot see me

They can't see how my smile is fake

They can't see that behind this mask of happiness is despair and self hate

Scratching at my wrists and digging my nails in my palms

Tears cloud my vision and yet I still see more than they do.

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"I'm okay" is probably the biggest and most frequent lie I tell.

Because being okay is the only acceptable answer to their questions.

If you say otherwise you just make everyone uncomfortable, and it shows in their eyes how much they don't actually care.

They weren't really interested in how you are, that was just proper manors asking.

So now you're both awkward and neither knowing what to say.

So that's why it's better to lie and say you're okay, because you avoid their pity and people get to stay in their happy bubbles unaware.

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