CHANGES IN MY LIFE [BibleBuild] ManxMan

Chapter 15

BIBLE'S POV

"Bro, what's wrong with you these days, you don't seem to be like your old self," Ta said leaning on his couch.

We are currently in his apartment because that's what I told Bui.

If he found out that I am lying he will scold me again like last time and ban me from going out.

This past few weeks after the incident where I got sick because of my carelessness he becomes more strict with me.

Every time I want to go out and have some fun, he wants to know where exactly I am going and who I am going to be with.

And not only that, but he also gives me a curfew. If I exceeded the time limit he gave me, he will let me sleep in the guest room.

I don't know what's happening to him, he is not like that before.

"Because of Bui," I shortly answer and took the glass of coffee that he prepared.

We are not drinking like we always do, I just want to go to him and talk about my situation.

"So what about your husband?" then he smiled mischievously.

I took a deep and answered him "I don't know bro, I'm anxious about our relationship," then I started telling him everything about what was going on with us.

Since the day we first met and till now.

Even the day I got drunk and got sick, I told him everything.

But I didn't tell him about our sex life, because I know he will laugh at me if I tell him that since he got pregnant I didn't have sex with him.

"You know bro since you came back you really changed a lot,"

"What changed are you talking about?" I turn to him with a questionable look.

"No need to hide Bib, I can see that you already fall for him. Based on your story and the way you acted toward him. I think both of you need to talk about your feelings for him," he looks serious when he said that.

"But how? His ex came back and they even kissed in front of me," my hurt sank after remembering that day again.

Bui didn't say anything to me yet, after their talk. He told me that I need to remember what I told him that night too before he will tell me the things that he and his ex talked about.

And that's stressing me out too. How am I going to remember the words I told him if every time I saw him was that fucking kiss that I witnessed between him and his ex.

"Did he tell you that they got back together?"

"No,"

"See, you are just assuming things. If he wants to go back to his ex, since that day you witnessed them kissing each other, he will not stay longer at your house by now," he stated

"Ta, please don't give me false hope about him. I don't want to think that he likes me too because he told me that he only needs me before."

"Sometimes people need us because they love us?" he also un assure by his words then he started laughing after.

"But sometimes they only need us because we are the only ones who can help them," I sigh

Because I'm hurt by my own words,

"You know, just tell him the truth and see if he likes you back."

"No, I'm afraid," I whispered then look at the ceiling thinking deeply.

"Now you know that you really change. Before, you always fight someone because they were stealing your so-called boyfriend. And also remember you always say "I'm not afraid of rejection, because I'm the one who's going to reject them" what now huh? And mind you, you even tell us that you don't want to be in a serious relationship, and look what you've done. You hide your marriage and your son from us."

Now that he reminds me of my own words before, I am going to admit now that I'm really such a big jerk before.

I took a deep sigh. After all, I can't even defend myself, because everything he said now was true.

"But I think time changes everything, for what we are before. Like someone will come to us and knock our senses to become a better person."

"Us?" Now I'm also confused about his words.

Then he smiled and shook his head.

"I'm seeing someone," he admitted and look away.

"As in dating, or hallucinations?" I didn't know why I asked him that.

"Bro, what the hell! What do you think of me living in hallucinations?" then he punched me on my shoulder.

I think he is telling me the truth because he reacted differently.

I thought he is just making up some stories.

"How long?" now I'm also interested in his love life.

"I'm not telling you, I will let you know when I'm heartbroken and wanted to rant about my relationship. That time I can tell you everything too, like what you are doing to me now," and now it's payback time I guess.

"Okey up to you," I don't want to ask any more questions because I know he's not going to answer me.

"So when are you going to tell him?" now we are back to my story again.

"I don't know If I can handle what is he going to answer me if I tell him I love him," I thought telling him my problems makes me feel better, but no, I added more stress to myself.

"See you admitted that you love him now. Why not just tell him face to face" he suggested again.

"Aaaarrrrggghhh, it's not easy," then I pulled my hair because of frustration because of that.

"Or maybe you told him already that time you got drank," now I look at him with horror on my face.

"No, I didn't," I asserted

Now that he told me that, I don't know what to think anymore.

My head started to get hurt because of stress.

I think love is stressful, and now I hated it.

And my anxiety is not helping either.

Then I got a notification from my phone and it was from Bui.

Papa B
You are late. Are you going to live with him now? Just tell me so I can pack your things and send them there. If ever you want to come back, you know where to sleep. And please drive safely.

"Not again," I groaned when I check the time, it was already 10 minutes since my curfew hour.

"Just go home to your beloved husband, I think he is just worried about you."

"I'm already late so I will stay here a little longer," I mumbled while sulking.

I'm sad because I'm not allowed to sleep next to him.

Cause I want to see him before I sleep and I want to see him first thing when I wake up in the morning.

"Don't wait till he sends you another message Bib, you won't like what is he going to tell you next," he warned me.

"How did you know that kind of thing?" Now I remember that he told me that he is seeing someone earlier.

"Just go Bib, and answer him before you leave," he said again.

Then I heard my notification bell again.

Papa B
Are you that very busy that you can't even single send a single okay after reading my message?

Now Ta was right, I think I need to hurry to go back home.

Daddy B
I'm sorry, I'm coming home now.

Papa B
Okay, remember to drive safely.
Goodnight 😘

When I saw the emoji he uses, my heart started beating faster.

Because he never uses those emojis before.

Sorry for the late update...

Goodnight/morning