In the end

Chapter 45

Daisy's pov:

I arrive home and was greeted by my mum but I don't talk to her instead I drop everything and just go up to my room.
Once Im inside my bedroom I fall onto the floor and my whole emotions come crashing down, I felt the stress of everything falling down my cheeks but most of all the hurt I had been building up during the car journey here.
I wanted this pain in my heart to stop.

There was a knock on my door and my mums voice follows 'Hunny are you okay?'
I wipe my tears and stand up from the floor
'I'm fine mum, just got my period'
'Oh alright, let me know if you need anything'
Her footsteps fade into the distance.
My lips quiver and the tears start to fall again.
I'm embarrassed of myself but mostly the fact that I defended jax when Micheal warned me not to go for him for the second time.
I cover my mouth to try not to scream but I can't help it and I let out a small scream hoping my mum doesn't hear it.
'Your so stupid Daisy! Your so fucking stupid'

'Leave'
'This is jax's for now mistress'
'Jax wont ever be with someone like you'
'He's not the right person for you Daisy'
'He will break your heart'
'I love you Daisy'
'Your perfect'

The thoughts and words all cascade my mind and I can't think of anything but to go into the shower and just wash the pain away, would it go though? No it won't.
Why?: I've been betrayed by a guy who I genuinely loved and cared about like I never did for anyone else.

He was hurt Daisy.
Maybe he didn't mean it?

Even if he was hurt, I trusted him not to ever hurt me the way he did today.
No amount of hurt will make you do something that will hurt someone else unless your genuinely mean to hurt someone.
I was there for jax through thick and thin and he was there for me too, he never saw me hurt him the way he hurt me today.
Never in a million years would I ever of thought about kissing another guy whilst going through shit I couldn't explain to anyone.
And even if I did do it, do you really think he would forgive me after it?
I think everyone knows the answer to that.

It was still the early morning and I didn't have the energy to leave my room and my mum was so concerned she came to check up on me once in a while to see if I was okay and the only thing I could reply with was 'I'm fine, I have cramps'

It was coming to seven in the afternoon and I was still in my room and if I knew any better I would rot in here.
I heard another knock on my door for the thousandth time and the irritation got to me.
'Mum I said I'm okay' I go to open the door and it was Micheal.
He had his hands in his pockets and looking inside my room then at me.
'You okay?' I gulp back a welled up emotion that was ready to come out from my throat.
'Yes' I try to close the door but he puts his hand in the way to keep me from shutting the door.
'I know your not, and I've never seen you like this before when you always had your period, so tell me what's up'
I can't fight it anymore and the more he was in my presence the more I couldn't help but see the supportive brother who tried to warn me about jax and I completely feel stupid for not listening to him.
Even after everything, after going against him, after I stuck up for jax and not my own blood, he's still standing here waiting to support me as I pour my heart out.
My emotions come wrecking down and I sniff as my millionth tear comes rolling down my cheek.
I look away so that he doesn't see me cry but he steps inside my room and hugs me.
'Is it about jax?'
I don't say anything and he already has his answer.
'For fucks sake sis' he rubs my head and I wrap my arms around him tightly.
I never knew what a comforting sibling feeling was like until this very moment.
Right now my brother was my comfort person and I felt genuinely grateful he was here.
'I'm sorry Mike, I'm sorry for not listening to you' my voice comes out croaky and my nose was stuffed from all the crying I've been doing for the past five hours.
'It's okay, it's okay' he says calmly which only comforts me even more.
I stop crying and look at him and his eyes were red as if he's enraged.
'What did he do?' I shake my head and pull away from the hug.
I didn't want to tell Micheal what happened because he was already pissed off at jax and I didn't want it to escalate to a bigger problem.
'Tell me Daisy, your my sister, let me be there for you' he says which only makes me tear up even more
'It's nothing, just a usual argument' I say which did not sound convincing at all but he didn't drag the conversation anyway.
'Want to go in and out?' He says and I shake my head
'I want to stay in my room maybe tomorrow?' I say and he nods
'Okay but come eat dinner, mum is so worried about you because you haven't ate anything since this morning'
'I'm not hungry, I'll eat later' I say and he frowns
'Daisy stop, you either tell me what happened with jax or you eat dinner'
I cross my arms and for once I had to listen to micheal, I had no other choice so I just agreed to coming downstairs for dinner.