So what?//Hayes Grier Fanfic

Chapter 25

Nash's POV:

I woke up with someone lying on me. I looked down to see Hannah rubbing her eyes and looking up at me.

"Did we fall asleep" she sleepily giggled.

"We did" I replied back smiling.

"You wanna go get breakfast" I added as we both got up from her bed.

"Yeah sure. Can it just be me and you though. I feel like we haven't spent proper time together for a while" he questioned picking out some clothes.

"Of course" I said smiling as I walked out of her bedroom and into mine. We turned the attic into separate bedrooms for me, Cam, Matt and Hayes so I have my own room.

I went up and got changed into black jeans and a sweater. I came back down to see Hannah dressed in light blue jean shorts, a white crop top and a white lace cardigan.

I smiled at her as she done the same in return.

"Where are you going" I heard Cam ask from the couch.

"To get breakfast together because we haven't spent proper time with each other for ages" I said as he said okay. Me and Hannah went out the door and got into her car.

She started the engine and drove to the mall and parked the car. We got out and walked into the mall.

Hannah instantly pulled me into Taco Bell as I laughed and followed her. We ordered our food and sat down in a booth opposite each other.

"So how are you" I asked as she took a sip from her coke.

"Good you-"

"No. Like really, how are you" I said looking deep into her eyes. She sighed and brushed a piece of hair behind her ear.

"I've not cut in months" she said but I could tell she was lying. I raised my eyebrow as she looked at me confused.

"What?" She questioned.

"Tell me the truth" I said as she sighed.

"I did it yesterday when you fell asleep" she said as I sighed and put my head in my hands.

"I'm sorry" she whispered. I looked back up at her to see the tears threatening to spill from her eyes.

I place my hand on hers as I slowly took her sleeve and started lifting it up. I didn't get very far though because she pulled away quickly.

"Hannah" I said as she sighed knowing that I needed to see. I slowly lifted the sleeve of her cardigan to reveal multiple cuts that looked really deep.

"Hannah why? You knew I was there, you could have came to me" I said as I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

"I know but you were sleepi-"

"I don't care if I'm asleep, awake or in another country. I will always be here for you" I said as she let out a small smile.

"You promise that you'll come to me next time?" I asked.

"I promise" she said as a waitress bought our food over.

We just ate and walked around the mall for a while until we decided to go back home.

When we got back everyone was in the living room as a film was about to start.

"Ooh what film is it" Hannah asked running and jumping on the couch causing Matt to fall off. Everyone burst out laughing as I went and sat on the couch to.

"It's Frozen" Cam said as we all quietened down. We sung along to the songs most of the time until it finished.

"It's like 11:00 and I'm so tired. Night" I said going upstairs and into my bedroom. I laid on my bed for about 10 minutes until I heard a knock at my door.

Hannah's POV:

"It's like 11:00 and I'm so tired. Night" Nash said as he went upstairs.

"I think I'm gonna got to bed to" I said getting up and going upstairs to my bedroom. When I got in there I noticed my window was wide open.

I cautiously walked over to it and closed it. I walked into my bathroom and picked up my toothbrush.

I brushed my teeth and spat it out. I rinsed my mouth and toothbrush and put it in the pot. I looked up to the mirror and was shocked at what I saw.

'You can't run - X'

Was written in the same bright red lipstick as before in the toilets at Taco Bell the other day.

I got a tissue and wet it wiping the lipstick off. This means that this new X was in my bedroom.

I thought this whole X thing was over but I'm guessing it wasn't just Gilinsky that wanted to mess with me.

I can feel it. The urge to cut. I know Nash said to come to him but I need to do this.

I opened a cabinet below the sink in my bathroom and got out a pot. I opened it up to see my blades.

I started to feel the tears running down my cheeks as I shakily brung the blade to my wrist.

I felt the cold metal connect to my skin.

But I couldn't.

There was something stopping me.

I sighed and put the blade back int the pot. I can't break my promise with Nash.

I walked out of my room and up the stairs and to Nash's room. Opened the door to see him lying on his bed watching tv.

"Hey Han- woah what's up" he said. I just burst into tears. He immediately came up to me and guided me to his bed as we both sat down.

"What's wrong?" He questioned rubbing circles on my back to comfort me.

"I-I was going to cut" I practically whispered. Nash stopped rubbing my back and looked into my eyes.

He sighed and wrapped his arms around my shoulders tightly but safely. I wrapped my arms around his torso as I cried into his chest.

He rocked me back and forth as I eventually calmed down. I just sat in his arms as he played with my hair.

"I'm glad you came to me first" he said in a breath.

"I had the blade to my skin" I said. But I felt like I was in a different world. A different body. With a different mind.

"But you didn't" he said.

No

I didn't

And now I'm regretting that decision