So what?//Hayes Grier Fanfic

Chapter 28

Cams POV:

Me, Nash and Hayes are at Radley about to visit Hannah. We signed in and got our visitors passes as the nurse lead us to her room.

I could hear someone humming a song as it got louder and louder the closer we came to Hannah's room.

I recognised the song as I listened carefully until it hit me.

-flashback-

"Mom whats in the box?" My 7 year old self asked my mom as she bought a box into the living room and setting it down on the coffee table.

"It's all of my old records" She said opening the lid.

"What are records" 5 year old Hannah asked.

"They are like cd's, they play music on this" she said pointing to this box thing with a tube coming out of the top. I never new what it was for though.

"You put the record you want on here. And move the handle thing onto it" she said as she done just that.

Suddenly a song started playing.

"This is the song me and your dad danced to at our wedding. Its my favourite. Its called skinny love by birdy" (I know that song probably wasn't out when Cam and Hannah were 5 and 7 but just pretend it was)

The song was beautiful. I looked at Hannah as she closed her eyes and swayed gently to the music as mom done the same.

-flashback over-

We got to the door as the nurse opened it. We walked inside to see Hannah in the same chair as she hummed to the song.

"Hey Hannah" Hayes said. She turned her head slowly and looked at us all with a blank expression.

She got up slowly and walked towards us. I smiled thinking she was going to hug me or something but she didn't.

She just walked straight past us and out of the door. We followed her as she got to a room.

It had sofas and games to keep the patients occupied. She walked in and sat on a chair at a table.

She got out a pack of playing cards and set them out on the table.

"She always plays cards" the nurse said. I watched Hannah's movements intently. It was almost like she was moving in slow motion.

I walked over and sat on a chair along with Nash and Hayes as we all watched her playing.

She started to sing 'skinny love' but with the lyrics this time instead of just humming.

It was hard to hear her because she was singing quietly.

She picked up a card and stopped singing instantly. She just stared at the card as she quickly set it down and putting the cards in a pile so I couldn't see what card it was and what she was looking at.

She put the cards back in a box but she never even done anything with them.

"I'm going to talk to the nurse" I said getting up and walking over to the nurse.

"Hi Umm, I was just watching Hannah play with the cards and she looked at one and just froze, has she ever done that before?" I questioned as she nodded.

"Yes. It happens every time she gets the cards out. She will pick one up and freeze, staring at it then she will quickly pack them away like she was scared of it" she explained as i furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.

"Whats on the card?" I questioned.

"That's what confuses me. Its just the five of hearts" she said shaking her head and walking away leaving me confused.

I walked back over to to the boys about to sit down until someone spoke.

"Visiting hours are over" one of he nurses said. We said bye to Hannah but obviously didn't get a reply. We signed out and gave back our passes as we got into Nash's car.

"What did the nurse say about the card" Hayes questioned.

"She said that Hannah always does it. But it's just the five of hearts. I don't understand why the five of hearts card is scary" I said as Nash started the engine and dive us home.

We finally arrived as we walked inside. Matt said he had to move closer to his mom because they're having family issues so he moved back to North Carolina.

We walked in to see Sam and Sofia watching tv. I said hi to them and went upstairs into my room. Not long after there was a light knock on my door.

"Come in" I said as the door opened to reveal Sofia.

"Hey princess" I said as she half smiled and walked over sitting on my bed next to me. Her legs didn't touch the floor because she was to short.

""She sat there fiddling with her thumbs like she was sad.

"What's up beautiful" I questioned placing my hand gently on her back.

"I miss mommy" she said which broke my heart. I sighed as I pulled Sofia onto my lap as she wrapped her arms around my neck.

"Mommys not well at the moment and is going to be in a place that with help her get better. We all miss mommy. But we all have to stick together and help her get better so she can come home" I said trying to hold in my tears.

"Can I go and see her" she said but I shook my head. I mean, I'm not taking a 4 year old to a mental hospital. It wouldn't be nice for her and to see her mom like that, who knows what Hannah would do.

"Is she sick" Sofia asked almost in a whisper. I paused for a minute trying to think of what to say. I sighed.

"Yeah" I said in a breath. I couldn't lie to her. Not about her own mom. I could feel a tear roll down my cheek.

"Don't cry uncle Cammy" Sofia said giving me a big hug which made me cry even more.

I started to cry so much that you could hear my loud sobs. I could feel Sofia tense and look at me scared but I couldn't help it. I couldn't stop.

All of these emotions that I have tried so hard to keep in have took over.

I think I was crying so loud that the boys could hear from downstairs. Nash came in and picked Sofia up.

"Why don't you go and help uncle Sammy make dinner huh" he said as she nodded and Nash put her down. She came over to me and kissed my cheek.

"She'll be okay uncle Cammy" she said cutely. I just half smiled as she skipped out of the room.

Nash sat next to me as he wrapped me in a hug. I just cried and cried into his chest.

When dad died and all of the stuff happened with X, I felt like there was a huge weight on my shoulders and it kept getting heavier and heavier, until I couldn't hold it up any longer. And I just crumbled...

And broke...

But I glued myself back together with the help of my friends and Hannah.

I don't think glue is going to put me back together this time...

I just need Hannah...