My second chance [GenderSwap][BxB]

Chapter 7 ⚠️

**Warning: A bit of suicidal thoughts.**

Jaemin's POV:

Money has always ruled the world...

After a week, I was called to the principal's office with my grandmother again. We got threatened to take back our report and not sue them for what they had done to me, or he would've fired me from the school for tarnishing its reputation. I knew that he had received bribes from those guys' parents since they were part of the school's supporters.

My grandmother was so shocked and scared at that moment. She kneeled down on her knees, begging the principal not to fire me desperately. My heart was shredded into pieces as I saw my grandmother's tears falling down while there was a menacing smile on the principal's face.

I felt disgusted by all of them...
I couldn't tolerate it anymore...

I grabbed my grandmother's arms and helped her stand. Then I shouted at him, "I don't care whether you fire me or anything, but I'm not gonna shut my mouth in this case!"

I pulled my grandmother out of his office and groaned, "Grandma... Don't listen to them! You shouldn't kneel down in front of someone like him! They can't do anything!"

"But... Jaemin-Ah... What if you can't study anymore!!! What if you can't go to university!!! I don't want your future to get ruined because of them!!! Let's just forget about the whole thing! Hm? Don't fight against them... Your school will finish in a few months..." My grandmother said as she was still crying...

"I don't care! I only want them to get punished for what they did!" I said angrily and took her home.

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Sometimes I think about what would've happened if I had listened to my grandmother that day?...

Would she still be alive today?...

Sometimes, I feel like my stubbornness has caused her to pass away...

I can't help but feel guilty about it...
Over and over again...

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The day that I lost her, I was at school as usual. And my grandmother was at home like another ordinary day. However, those guys' parents barged into our house out of the blue, threatening my grandmother by scaring her to death.

The house was totally flipped when I arrived, so you can imagine the mess they made. I looked over for my grandmother, calling her name anxiously as my heart was jumping out of my chest. When I finally found her in her room, she was passed out on the floor. I rushed towards her, rocking her body back and forth as I held her in my arms. "Grandma! Grandma!!!" I wailed desperately...

I pulled out my phone out of my pocket and called for an ambulance while my hands were shaking in fear, and my tears were flowing down.

As we got into the ambulance, on the way to the hospital, she gained consciousness for a brief moment. She barely opened her eyes and mumbled something. I closed my ear near her mouth, trying to hear what she was trying to say.
Then I heard her weak voice saying, "My baby... Jaemin... P-please... Graduate and l-live a h-happy... life... Even if... I w-was't with you... any-more... Promise... me..."

I held her hands tightly and whined, "You'll be... Okay... Grandma... Don't leave... me... I only... have you..."

As she closed her eyes, she had never opened them again no matter how hard the medical team tried to save her.

She died due to a heart stroke in the end...
And, that was how I lost my only family member...

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After her funeral, I was totally haunted by guilt eating me up from inside. When I got back to school, I couldn't tolerate it anymore. Everything was suffocating me to death, their judgmental gazes, their humiliating smirks, and shameless whispers...