Whitewashed Dreams (A Chat blanc Story)

❦Blackout love❦

A storm, once again, washing up the city I start humming in my solitude, on top of a lonely rooftop.

I thought we had it all
But then you let me go
You used up my colors
Murkiness blackouts my heart
You were keeping me close
Till I was too rotten for your taste
I have forgotten myself,
A Life that lost its tones

The universe gets hit with by a blackout
The world twists and disfigures once lovers
Dreamers asleep, can't pull away from the sickness
Revolution, can you hear the screams echoing in my head

We came so far, we shared the discolourations
Painted the world in hope and sorrows
My mind ached to be accepted
What were once paintings
Are just dust in dwindle in memories
Ambition becomes fading hues
Romance was just a fable that worn me

Pretending to act on promises
Sweared that you would stay
I wanted to live a lie, maestro behind it
Your clutches drained my blaze

Left a soiled canvas drenched in distrust
A dead-end, the clouds left lies pouring
Too many valleys to cement
My wounds flow deeper than rivers

I thought we had it all
But then you let me go
You used up my colors
Murkiness blackouts my heart
You were keeping me close
Till I was too rotten for your taste
I have forgotten myself,
A life that lost its tones

Knock me out, take me back
Memories keep flooding in
The pity doesn't appease the ache
No room for anger or sadness
Love was just a fiction we yearned for
Keeping me alive just to pluck me
Staining my clothes with poison
My vision crimsoned by betrayal
Trying to look on for a glow
To torch any hope left
Stuck in this harmony, bleak voices echoes
Back and forth I have been chasing
nothing more than a blacked-out dream

I thought we had it all
But then you let me go
You used up my colors
Murkiness blackouts my heart
You were keeping me close
Till I was too rotten for your taste
I have forgotten myself,
A life that lost its tones

As the rain starts pouring down, I whisper the last words.

I find solace in my affliction
Torments keep me going
Left my past, embracing them
Darkness engulfs my desires
You shut my only source of light
My life slips away, I want it back
But you striped my spirit
I am just a hull without shade
My tears smear my smile
Your touch still plagues my thoughts
Dimmed gleam, I left it all behind
I was to caught up in a fantasy
In the end, shame is all that remains
The ashes of blank pages
We never got to write

In the end its all the same
I am the one to blame

Breaking down, I finish the song, humming one last time the chorus

I thought we had it all
But then you let me go
You used up my colours
Murkiness blackouts my heart
You were keeping me close
Till I was too rotten for your taste
I have forgotten myself,
A life that lost its tones...

Jay finds me on the roof, getting all soaking wet. 

"Hey Adrien, sorry to disturb you... are you alright?" He says. I wipe my face, making sure he doesn't see my tears. The rain should cover it up.

"Nah I am alright... so why did you come here?" I ask him.

"Its the first Thursday of the month." he says.

"So...?"

"It's cookout challenge, and MJ is here haha, it's going to be INTENSE!" 

"Cookout... challenge?"

"Yeah it's plenty of fun, you should've seen last month's Nesmos' dish, was absolutely succulent..  A brawl even started out with Anne and the lion

"No way they seem like best buds" I laugh. "Alright, can't miss that, will be joining you in a couple of minutes."

"Alright see you then!" Jay then leaves. All seems good.

Seems

I died and made a deal with Hades, Gehen can be out any moment, Mari/ladyblanche was a traitor, Jake the werewolf is still out with his associates, including whoever shot Yustin, interpol and shadowmoth knows about my existence and I still don't know what is the deal with MJ and him hiding his powers...

One day at a time.

Gotta live one day at a time.

For now, I will enjoy the rain.

** THE VID OF THE SONG WILL BE THE BLACKOUT LOVE SONG**