Safe Haven (Niall Horan) Book 1~

Chpt 4- His P.O.V, Nightmares

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*Quote*

" Promises are worse than Lies Because You Don't Just Make them believe, You also make them HOPE"

-Crystal xx

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His P.O.V

-2 yrs after breakup-

“Wilcox!!!” my boss yelled at me. I sighed heavily. I’ve been looking through the airports security cameras trying to looking for my ex- girlfriend. I grabbed my ‘water’ bottle from off my desk and walked to the Bosses office.

“Yes, sir?” I asked looking at him

“What has been going on with you? And what is this?!” he picked up the missing person report for my ex- girlfriend- Spencer Hastings. It was a poster.

“This is your EX-GIRLFRIEND, she’s not a missing person okay?!!!” he yelled at me “And what is in that bottle?” he said pointing to the bottle

“Just water sir” I said not looking at him

“really? Give it here” he said. I looked up at him in confusion.

“Give it here Wilcox” he bellowed.

“NO, sir it’s just water” I said arguing with him.

“What did you just say?” he said angrily

“I mean… here sir” I said handing it to him.

He sniffed the bottle “Are you serious Wilcox?!” he said “Vodka”

“You’re off the force, give me your badge” he said with his hand out

“WHAT?!!!” I said angrily.

“NOW!!!” he said and I pulled my badge from the side of my jeans and handed it to him.

“Now go pick up your stuff and I don’t want to see you around here yeah here?” he said and I nodded getting up and leaving the police station.

I went back to the house where it all started. I remember feeling the pain when she put the knife on my side. Then when I found her the next week I tried to ask for forgiveness.

*Flashback*

“Ryan what are you doing here?” she hissed at me her eyes filled with fear.

“I came to see you, I want you back baby” I said trying to sound pleading

“NO….”she whimpered “We are done okay? DONE” she yelled and she tried to slam the door in my face but I stopped it.

“Please just one last chance” I said looking at her

“I gave you enough chances okay, we are done I never wanna  see you again” she said and closed the door.

Wow that really hurt.

* End of Flashback*

I walked in and saw it just the way I left it a couple of months ago. The blood stain still on the floor. I didn’t want to clean it up. After years of trying to look for her; I think I might have a lead. I’ve looked through every bus camera, train camera, taxi offices, and every mode of transportation you could think of. Today I looked at the airport security camera’s and might have found something, but since I just got kicked off the force I can’t do that anymore…. Wait I actually made a copy of the footage from the airport.

I walked over the computer and plugged in the Thumb drive and opened it up. Then I saw something that caught my eye.

Her.

This was a couple days ago. She was departing to…

London, England

Wait… why?

That doesn’t matter… all that matters is that I have found out where’s she going.

-Back to Spencer’s P.O.V-

I was getting ready for bed when I heard a knock at the door.

“hey can I come in?” asked my sister Lydia

“Yeah sure” I said as I put the comb down “what’s up”

“SO I wanna talk to you about Niall” she said cautiously

I nodded for her to continue.

“That boy…. I’ve seen the way he looks at you ya know?” she said smiling a little bit

“I know” I said sighing

“Then why don’t you let him try… or at least go out on a date with him?” she said

“WHY?” I said my voice rising “Because every time I let someone in or let them try it always end up being bad or I end up getting hurt- both mentally and physically” I told her now crying.

She looked at me “How do know if he’s like the rest of the guys or like RYAN?” she said. I cringed at that name “What if he’s different?” she continued

I stayed silent not knowing what to say.

“Spence, you need to let go of your past and learn to live in the present… try something different and Let Niall try okay?” she said and stood up and left the room.

Once she left I leaned back on the headboard and thought.

Maybe she is right. Maybe I need to let go and let people in and stop shutting them out.

With that I fell into a deep sleep.

I was running and looking back, checking every so often to see if he was following me.

The sound of my feet hitting the pavement and my breathing coming out fast.

All I remember is what I kept saying to him.

“Please… please let me go” I said weakly

“Let me go!!!” I cried.

I woke up to myself sweating and crying. I sat up and hugged my knees.

Afraid to go back to sleep.