Cruel Love [L.H]

Chapter 20

I sat there thinking of how much drama there will be if I told Michael what happen, probably he can't handle my bullshit and he'll probably think that I'm a fucking hoe .

I texted Michael and I called him but there were no answers. I went to school as usual but it was the same routine everyday. I watch as Calum walk furiously to me.

I tried to take out my books that I needed quickly so I could avoid him but I accidentally dropped them because I was afraid. He was probably going to do something worse to me.

There was no escaping. Guilt fell across my face as the flashback of last night played in my head. I hated myself, I felt as if everything was missing and gone.

"Hey!" He said clenching my jaw with his hands.

"What the fuck is wrong with you? You think you can just ruin things for me? Wait and see, you'll wish you never did what you did!" He spat, then letting go of his tight clench.

That's it, I was in trouble I was terrified of what he was going to do to me. Michael didn't show up and he hasn't been answering my calls and it makes me worried.

I went into science class and Calum was there, his face was burning red like the hate he had for me. What if he wanted to kill me? I might as well die because I have attempted suicide a billion times but failed to die.

Why do Luke and his friends have this grudge on me? Maybe I am a dumb fucking nerd who's fucking annoying. I was prepared for the torments that I was going to face.

Calum was there with an evil grin on his face. He was up to no good. Amongst them, Luke and Calum were the worst to me. I could never tell why.

Luke was their ring leader but what does he have against me. Class went on like normal but when the bell rang everyone rushed out of class. I stayed behind because I wanted to see the teacher.

"Excuse me teacher?" I said.

"Ah yesss Autumn, you have been doing such a great job. Calum has been passing with flying colours and he's improving because of you. I knew I made the right choice choosing you as his tutor" she said smiling.

I wanted to tell her that I couldn't do it anymore but I couldn't because he was doing fine and she was happy.

"Uhhh, actually I came to see you about that" I said to her.

"So what's it?" She asked.

"I can't do it anymore, I'm really sorry" I said.

"Oh no dear, but you're one of the best tutors here" she said worried.

"I -I-I just can't do it anymore" I said shaking.

"How unfortunate, how about one more session and if you really can't do it I'll try to find someone else" she said.

"Umm... okay teacher I'll try" I said walking out of class.

It was recess and everyone had already start to fill the cafeteria. I sat at a table with my books and an apple. I looked across to see Calum standing on top of the table.

"Excuse me everyone, as you all know today is Dearest Diary day and let's see who's diary this is" he said.

Maybe it was some kids diary that he took. I didn't really know or cared.

"Well we have the nerd's diary right here, and that is Autumn!" He said.

My heart skipped a beat hearing the sound of my name. Me? I should have known, how did I not realise that my diary was stolen from my drawer? Why didn't I realise that this was just a set up to ruin my life?

I dropped everything hearing the sound of my name and the laughters. Everyone looked up to Calum to hear what he had to say.

"Dear diary, Michael is so sweet, I had the best night ever. Especially that day on the beach when I lost my virginity. Well writing in here is the only way I can express how happy I am. His beautiful red hair that glowed in the moonlight, his gentle touch to my skin and the way our lips connect" Calum read in a girly tone and laughters start to fill the cafeteria.

"Oh my gosh, his gentle touch" Calum said in a girly tone making everyone laugh.

I was crushed, everyone was staring at me. I walked away from the cafeteria and I could hear people calling me names as I walk past them. People gave me stares and I could feel piercing eyes pierce through my back and laughters too.

Tears stream down my face as I ran out of the cafeteria. I had no one now to help me. Everyone will start calling me a virgin slut.

I was so sad and angry, I don't wanna live anymore. I skipped classes by going to the nurse. Yes, I was attempting to murder myself because of the shame and the pain.

There was no one around and I just wanted to do something, which was overdosed on the pills here. I swallowed quite a huge amount of pills and I felt as if my heart skipped a beat, I was suffocated by the pills so I blacked out.

I woke up to bright lights and the sight of a hospital bed.

"Hello girl, you're finally awake" the doctor said.

"So tell me if anyone in you're genes has ever gone through this kind of problem?" he asked.

"No, I've never met any of them so I wouldn't know" I answered.

"Did you know you tried to swallow a bottle of pills that could have killed you?" He asked.

"Yes,I was aware of that" I replied.

"We had to make you vomit out the pills" he said.

"So you'll be here a few days and you'll have a daily visit from our psychiatrist so you can recover soon" he continued.

"Why did I survive doctor?" I asked out of the blues.

"Well you're lucky that you didn't get taken away, most kids like you couldn't survive" he said.

"Doctor I don't wanna live" I said.

"Listen up dear, you're special and you're life is precious. You must not take it away. We've orgnaised a group sharing session for you and our psychiatrist who will be joined by other people who are going through a tough time like you, this way you will recover mentally and physically" he said walking away.

I needed to rest I was pale and I had blooshot eyes. I woke up by the sound of someone walking in through the door.

"Oh my gosh babe, your fine" Michael said running towards me with a bouquet of flowers. He gave a hug and a kiss on the forehead.

"Yea I'm feeling fine" I said with my raspy voice.

"Glad to see that my baby is fine" he said tucking my hair behind my ear.

"I'll be a here a few days to recover by doctor's request, I hope you can come and visit me because I don't want to be alone" I said.

"I will babe, anything for you " he said holding my hand and kissing it.

A/n : Hey guys sorry for not updating in ages. I'll try finishing this book so I can continue writing my fan fic abt harry styles. Hope you like it, I've not gotten much reads that's what you get when you don't update but I'm trying to finish this story in maybe abt 10 or 9 chapters but probably 10. For those who stayed a big Thank You! Bcuz ur the best :)