The Law of Attraction | Vol I

Bondage.

" even if you did cheat would you admit it?" He asked me, genuinely wanting to know and I nodded before I asked if he would tell me. 
"Would you - or would you hide it like you hid papa from me-" I was talking about my bonus son, and the circumstances surrounding his sons birth was a soft spot for him.
" no - I already paid the price for that-... I was just asking if you didn't get really mad, and let him-"
" fuck me? No,-"
" I don't believe you-"
" because your a piece of shit, that's why-" he paused, smiling at me like he knew I knew. It made my skin crawl, craving distance from him for the first time.
"and the fact you think that about me is sad... I accepted your apologies, your son, your proposal, gave you your daughter, you begged me for her...and everything you asked me for-"
" you did, I'll always be grateful -"
" but I won't accept lying, cheating... I don't deserve this shit Aubrey-" we were both breathing heavy, teary eyed, and angry at eachother like never before.
" look Ly... I love you but - this, this situation
is going to escalate beyond our control-"
" situation? We're married, and have a daughter... we've been fighting and it's escalating because you want it to-"
" I don't want that, so I have to go... if that's what we need to do, we gotta do that-"
" Aubrey... you cannot be serious! Why are-"
" it's like you just don't see it-"
" see what! we never had sex-"
" this time-"
" okay... alright Aubrey, if your gonna bring that up every time it's always going to be my bad so... I'm sorry okay-"
" I don't know who's lying anymore, I don't trust you "
" that's fine, I don't trust you! , you know why... because we were supposed to be past this - we're fucking married! You want to play childish games from the past not me!
" I fucking love you Lylee... I didn't marry you to have the tabloids speaking on you and your ex every other week... my name is being played with because of you-" his eyes ready to burst as were mine, full of sadness and curious as to what else he felt.
" look... I went, and I'm sorry but I had to-"
" exactly- being his friend means more to you than your marriage...I told you not to speak to him, at all..." he did,  and I wanted to change what happened but I couldn't now.
" I know, you did and we weren't talking, it was different and you know that... I called you 40 times Aubrey! 40 was calling you too, your mum, my parents, -"
" I had to clear my mind -"
" clear your mind yeah?"
" yeah-"
" stop fucking playing with me Aubrey... you have kids and anything could have happened -"
" who you talking to!? Huh? like you never  clearly went against me, you knew I would find out... you wanted me to!" I did, and was being spiteful and caring at the same time which made him think I preferred him overall.
" man told me you was -"
" I'm what?"
" not a wife-" I was winded, just looking at me he could tell and tried to soften the blow.
" not my wife... you still love that man... and, honesty Lylee I hope he's worth all this craziness-"
" you see you!, you are crazy!" I was hysterical now, crying as he was calmly confessing his inner paranoias to me.
"Okay... I'm crazy- so what!"
" you slept with someone I can tell-"
" stop-"
" no you stop"
" you caused this! Can't you see that-"
" I didn't do anything though... and I know you did"

He was smashing up the room now as I cried and could hear Summer starting to cry aloud in her room.
" my daughter is awake-"
" our daughter is -"
" I'm going to get my baby-" he ran ahead of me and held our bedroom door closed with a hand as i tugged at the door with two.
" anything to avoid me huh!" I stoped trying as he looked down on me, now between him and the door.
" so what the fuck!? Baby why are you doing this!?" I was at my wits end now, trying to understand how it got this far.
" It's... you don't even seem like you're sorry for having him around Summer" that part really made him mad, wondering if he held her and if I was reconsidering starting a family, with him. I slipped from between a his rock hard eyes peering down into me and the hardwood door back to our bed.
" sorry for what, having her around daddies imaginary competition?" I knew I was wrong as soon as I said it and he went off, shouting until the Chubbs appeared in the doorway.
" oh yeah, -"
" no, no- I'm sorry-"
" it's cool... I mean since we're telling the truth now,... I fucked a couple girls last week so... I guess... you got a little competition for yourself too-"
" are you fucking dumb!?" I saw red, swinging on him, and connecting with his nose sending him into an angry daze, using all his strength to suppress his nature, testosterone telling him to put down anything that made him a target. Claret red blood dripping down his face as he screamed back at me.
" What!? What the fuck you doing, don't touch me?!" he was holding my face, and gritting his jaw. My hands being restrained as I was trying to get loose. Blood over the both of us now, as we savagely grabbed each at other. 
" I should have fucked him then-" He was angry, actually furious, until he saw the fear in my eyes and backed away as I pushed him and slapped him again.
" don't fucking play with me! -" he grabbed my throat, and then came to his senses quickly.
" you cheated and you're trying to make it about me!" I was hitting him as he told me to chill, stop, relax, and stop provoking him.
" Don't hit me Ly...I'm begging you" he wrapped himself around me, restraining my arms and telling me to calm down with the hitting.
" let go of me Aubrey- now!"
" don't swing on me, I'm telling you now-" It got
physical, fast as furniture and harsh words came and went. The lamp bedside my side of the bed broken into pieces as I continued to push him, until he backed me
Onto the bed using just one thrust of his body. Face in mine, as he asked me with the meanest face I had ever seen on him.
" what are you doing, huh? you wanna fight now huh Ly?-"
" Yo, yo , stop-" Chubbs was shocked, pulling me off of him, and asking Aubrey to relax as he was so angry he actually laughed at me.
" I have to laugh- you're gonna make me kill someone-" he was fuming, pacing as I rolled my eyes and looked for my missing link from my charm bracelet.
" it's cool... I got you Aubrey, two can play your dumb little game-"
" it's not a game, I'm doing what I want if you are, and I know Niggas on your body so it's whatever-"
" I thought you wanted me to be your wife! But clearly, you miss the hoes and you think I'm a hoe too-"
" clearly-" I was stunned, fixing the clasp as I then began to plan what I needed to pack in my head.
" you cheated on me? you think I want to be married to a thot?" He was shocked but silenced by my sharp questions,
" so I'm a thot now?"
" you're a married man and you slept with how many people?" He was coming down from the anger now, regretting everything especially the alcohol. His uncontrollable alcohol freed emotions, steadily spiralling us apart, tearing us up, and casting the change to reconnect away.
" it was a mistake, and not a lot -"
" see... you even sound like a Thot"
" I sound like you... with Dave, and your ex-"
" okay... so I'm a thot too - so what? At this point I just want you to leave this house, my baby is crying, I'm covered in blood and this place is a mess-"
" you're spiteful-"
" am I!? You smashed up my phone!
" you punched me in my nose! And so what, I bought it, bought everything I broke too"
" okay, let me get my child and I'm out-
" you sound just like Sophie!"
"So I'm like, your baby mother now? Wow Aubrey-" Chubs and Aubrey were both silent, as I got angrier and came back at him, 40 now in the hallway with Summer who was whimpering and wanted to see her mummy.