Far Away

[14] I Don't Deserve This

Logan
Tuesday, 9:55pm

I lay back on my side on the mattress and stare at the clock. It makes no sense for Connor to stop coming. He's preparing something for me I know it, I feel it in my gut. Maybe tonight's the night he'll kill me. As the clock inch closer and closer to 10pm I think about my life and things I've never done. Join a choir, go to an amusement park, learn to swim, have sex willingly and have a boyfriend. I blink my tears away. I just don't understand how this had happen to me. I was never mean to anyone, if I got bullied I'd brush it off.

Ignoring a bully bullying you. That's not offensive to the bully, is it?

I'm not even going to over think it, cause I don't want to sulk. I'm sure the end of my stay here is coming soon and I won't be going home ever. The clock finally sounds off and I shoot up as I hear footsteps on the stairs for the first time in days. My heartbeat takes off as my palms get sweaty, and I frown in confusion as I hear heels clicking up the stairs.

Who the fuck is that?

I hold my breath as the door cracks open and a slim figure in heels walk in. They close the door and turn on the lights, I look away momentarily blinded then look back.

Oh shit...

The slim figure with long dark hair is definitely a girl and is glaring at me with hard brown eyes.

Shana...

I let out a gasp, stand up and wince a bit as she stands there, glaring at me.

What the hell was she doing here?

Is she actually here to help me?

"Shana. Oh my god, I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm so happy to see you!" I speak frantically and she giggles.

"You shouldn't be." She flips her hair and my mouth dropped at her tone.

Is she serious?

"You're serious right now? Do you know what I've been through up here this past week? I've been slowly dying from filth, abuse and starvation. The guys who kidnapped me are fucking crazy. I don't know how they picked me out of all people to kidnap, but they did and now here you are, witnessing I'm still fucking alive and you're just gonna sit there and scold me?" I glare at her and she glared back, walking towards me and hold up her fingers as she counted off.

"One, I'm very serious bitch. Two, I don't care what you've been up to, spare me all the details. Three, I can scold whoever I want, whenever the fuck I want. And lastly, don't ever call my love and his dad crazy. Don't get mad cause the only fucked up person here is you." I feel my eyes widen and my heart stop. I blink rapidly and whisper confused.

"Y-Your love?" As if on cue, Connor and his dad John walk in.

They glare harshly at me and smiled sweetly at Shana. Connor walked right over to her and give her the most sloppiest and nastiest kiss I've ever seen. My eyes burn with angry tears as they make out. They break apart and I shout angrily at them all.

"All of you are FUCKING CRAZY! What you're doing is illegal and inhuman! Shana, do you know how many times your 'love' has brutally fucked me!?" They all flinch and Shana's nostrils flare.

I wanted to punch the shit out of her, but she wasn't in arms reach.

So I taunt her.

"Yeah Shana. The same guy who says he loves you every night, turns around and fucks me. You really call that love? That's cheating!" Shana whips her head from me to Connor and I smirk and continue my assault.

"Oh, how could I almost forget. He even told me that he wanted me for a long time. He always stared me down in school. Bitch, your 'love" is a disgusting ass piece of shit!" I shriek and Shana snarls and lunge at me.

I was ready and stepped aside so she could fall into my boundary box. I grab her, repeatedly pulling her hair with one hand and punching her in the face with the other. She screams as I shove her down on the filthy mattress and bury her face into it. She muffled a scream as I yell at her.

"YOU SMELL THAT BITCH! THAT'S THE SMELL OF DISGUSTING SEX YOUR 'LOVE' WAS HAVING WITH ME EVERY NIGHT!" I throw punches at her head until I felt a pinch in my back.

I slowly lose control of my body as I slump on top of Shana. John lifts me up and threw me back down as soon as Connor move Shana from beneath me. I land in my side and stare at them consoling her. Her nose is bleeding and her hair is wild looking. She turn towards me and take off her heels. She snatch the patch of her hair from my hand and growls.

"You got lucky slut, and you fucking my love means absolutely NOTHING to me!" She glares and I laugh.

"Then why did you get so mad, bitch?" She growls again as she lifts one of her heels and pound me in the leg with it. I wince as she beat the skinny heel repeatedly all over my legs. I feel hot tears rolling down my face and Shana stops and giggles.

"Aw I'm sorry, did that hurt, you little weirdo? How about this?" She smack and punch me in the face weakly, but I was still so sore from Connor and John's beatings, that it felt like being punched in the face with bricks.

She went on like this, punching me, kicking me and spitting on me. She went on for so long that the drugs they drugged me with started to ware off. She went to hit me again and I viscously grab her hand to stop her and I shove her back, her stumbling recklessly, hiding behind Connor. Connor clears his throat and everyone stare at him, he turns to look at the clock and speak.

"That's enough for tonight. It's 11:45pm and we have to be at school tomorrow morning, Shana. If you still want to have some fun tonight, then you better bring your ass on and give it a rest." He looks at her serious and she pouts like the big ass baby she is.

She grabs Connor's hand and they walk out together. John stayed behind to turn off the light and close and lock the door. I lay on the mattress, staring silently at the ceiling.

I don't know what I did to deserve any of this, but at this point...

I'm ready for them to just go ahead and kill me already...

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