One Random Message

Why are you here?

   The doctor comes in to wake me up. She says that it is time to push. I give it my best shot and here she came! A beautiful 7 pound baby girl! I felt that moment again. When the whole world stops. In that moment it was just me and my baby. The baby that got my through the toughest time of my life.
The nursery takes the baby to get measurements while they move me into a different room. The room I would stay in for two days while I recover.

  The nurses bring my baby back. I can't stop staring at her.
" She looks just like you." Said my mom.
I looked up at her and she is crying. I can't believe my mom is happy.
She has the same eyes and nose as me. I kept seeing a part of Cody in her. It made me fall in love with her even more. I had a part of Cody with me that couldn't be taken away. Family decides to start visiting.
" I can't believe Cody came up here!" Said my cousin.
I look at her confused.
" What? No he didn't." I said.
She looks at my mom confused. I saw her eyes light up. " Oh no he didn't." She responded.
I didn't really care much for my cousin so I blew it off. Knowing her she was probably just trying to get something started. When she left it was just my mom and I in the room.
" I can't believe she said Cody came up here." I said to my mom.
My mom paused for a minute and looked at me.
" He did come up here." Said my mom.
Cody came? Oh my God! Cody came up here! Why did he come? He didn't want this baby!
" Well where is he?" I asked my mom
" We sent him on his way. We told him he didn't need to be here in this moment because you were about to have the baby. I didn't want you upset while you were doing that." She replied with a shaky voice.
She seemed scared to tell me that. Little did she know that I was thankful that she sent him on his way. I couldn't have handled seeing him while having the baby. He hasn't tried to come to any appointments the whole time I was pregnant. He acted like I didn't even exist.

  The guilt set in that he wasn't able to be there. He was the father but at a time like that I felt like my emotions came first.
More family visited and held my baby even though I wanted her to myself. I wanted to protect her from this cruel world.
" Knock knock!" Said the nurse at the door
" There is a boy here. He is saying he is the father of the baby. Should I let him in?" She asked
I paused. What do I say? This moment is so special to me. I saw Cody once during my entire pregnancy. Does he even deserve to come in here at a moment like this?
" Can you tell him that now isn't a good time?" I asked the nurse.
Without any hesitation she went to the door and told him what I said. All I could think about for the rest of the day was Cody. I couldn't figure out why he wanted to be in the baby's life all of the sudden. What if I let him in her life and then he disappears? There is a baby involved now. I have to protect her from that kind of heartbreak.
" I will give it time. I will see if he continues to come back around" I said to my mom
" It is your decision" she replied back.

  I finally go home from the hospital. It was so bittersweet bringing my baby home. I kept trying to figure out how Cody knew I was in the hospital. Who could have told him? Oh well, I will just focus on me and my baby now.

  The days were long and the nights were longer. My beautiful daughter was growing. I never heard anything else from Cody. He never tried to see her again. It's like he just came to the hospital for show.

When Kaylee hit 10 months old I started talking to people more. I became more social. I was proud of myself for how good of a mother I was.
" You should go out sometime Dessy. I can watch the baby for you." Said my mom
Maybe she was right. Maybe I should go do something.

   I started hanging out with my cousins. I always took Kaylee with me. I didn't like being apart from her.

   One day I get on Facebook. I see a guy in my suggested friends list. I knew this guy from school. I added him as a friend. Little did I know what would happen next..