Finding Love

Rosalie

"Starting over has been something I've grown accustomed to. Facing new changes though haven't been an easy adjustment"

The morning after I woke up to the worst headache. I checked the time and realized I had to go to the field again. I knew I would see Mateo and wasn't sure I could face that. Weighing out my options I texted Steve saying I was sick. 

Mateo had texted me last night but all I did was like the message. It was a dick move but I was still processing. So much happened and my feelings were all over the place. How do you act natural after making out with somebody you work with? Then Devon was on my mind I was struggling to move on after last night he's dead to me.

Sophia spent the night and I told her everything. She was mad I didn't mention the club or how we actually met but helped me calm down.

Since I took off work I went to the kitchen to cook breakfast and turned on the tv. 

I got notification and saw Mateo texted me. Putting some waffles in the toaster I replied seeing that he deserved something from me. 

We chatted for a minute as I ate my food. He was so sweet asking if I needed anything and I started to feel bad about lying. I needed to distract myself and went to catch up on emails. 

I spent two hours editing work and completing my next article . Time went by fast and I heard a low knock at the door. Assuming it was Sophia I got up shaking my head.

"Sophia how many times do I have to tell you to stop leaving the key I gave you" I said unlocking the door

I was about to say something else but stopped when I saw Mateo. 

"You're not Sophia...what are you doing here?" I questioned trying to wrap my head around this. Mateo was at my front door with a bag and bouquet of roses... 

"Nice to see you to sweetheart. I came to check on you since you're sick" he said stepping inside taking his shoes off and placing the bags on my kitchen counter 

I closed the door and walked behind him surprised by his sudden appearance. How did he know where I lived? Today was supposed to be a day free of Mateo and now he's in my house.

He turned around and picked up the red roses 

"These are for you. I thought since-" 

"My name is Rosalie I would love roses. Yea, heard that one before" I said snatching the flowers out his hand dumping them in the trashcan. 

Mateo looked at me hurt but It was nothing against him I just hate roses. They remind me of Devon and all the lies he fed me during our relationships. So I got rid them without thinking. 

"Well I apologize your majesty for thinking of you. You know what I'll just leave. Keep the groceries" he said storming out my apartment

I've never seen him that mad and guilt ran through my body. I walked to the bag he left on the counter and saw a bunch of vegetables and ingredients for soap. He even picked up my favorite ben and Jerrys ice cream. I forgot we talked about our guilty pleasures in food and I told him about my unhealthy attachment to ice cream. 

I'm such an idiot and once again let my past control me. I opened my front door and sprinted to the elevator hoping he hadn't left yet. Luckily he was still waiting at the door 

"Wait! I'm really sorry about that and you don't have to go. It's just that the flowers reminded me of my ex" I said grabbing his wrist 

"I'm not Devon and if you communicated this I would have understood" he said moving his  hands to hold mine