Finding Love

Mateo

"I've been wearing my heart on sleeve for too long"

Tuesday morning 

"I'm so excited for Qatar. I really think we're going to win this one" Vinicius expressed to me on the field 

We were leaving in two days and I was getting nervous. My dream of returning to the World Cup were coming true and I thanked god everyday for this chance. 

"Though it will be sad since you won't get to see Rosalie anymore" he added on to his statement 

I wasn't worried about that because I felt like our friendship has come a long way. It will be hard to do long distance but I already have a plan for that. Hanging out with Rose these past three weeks has been the moment in life and I wasn't going to let that go. 

A few days ago I talked to coach about securing two extra tickets to any games. I hadn't told Rosalie about it yet but I planned on flying her out to Qatar. I was catching feelings and even though we've only known each other for a short time I was sure about her. 

"Don't worry about that Vinicius. We'll be ok" I reassured him and myself 

Today was our last day of filming and I was actually going to miss it. We had fun making content with Rosalie and her team. The fans also enjoyed it and it was nice to read their comments. 

"How are you feeling" I heard Rosalies sweet voice ask as she handed me my water bottle 

"Excited but sad I won't  see your face everyday" I said making a sad pout grabbing the bottle 

She laughed at me and we talked a bit more before I headed back to the field for coaches final words 

"This has been a great month and I am confident in you guys as a team. You've worked hard and I know you will play good" he said smiling at us 

We felt encouraged and ready to face Siberia in our first match. I tell feel this year would be different and I was ready to enter it. 

At the end of practice we celebrated and thanked the crew for everything they've done. I kept my interactions with Rose to a minimum because I had a surprise for us later. 

Everyone was leaving the field but I stayed behind to take Rose back to her apartment. She said bye to everyone and finished packing her bag up, I leaned against the exit door waiting. 

"You are so irirating" she said as I pulled her into a hug 

She was resistant in hugging be back but soon wrapped her arms around my waist 

"I have a surprise for you" I said moving back walking us to the car 

"Is this a farewell gift?" she asked as I started the car and headed to the destnation 

"Somewhat" I replied 

I drove for 30 minutes leaving the city, going towards the mountains. I planned out a picnic for us on the hill where we could see the L.A. skyline. I parked the car at the bottom and grabbing the basket and blanket from the trunk.

"A picnic?" she asked excited by my surprise 

I nodded my head and held her hand as we walked up to the spot I picked out a few days ago. We placed the blanket on the floor and I unloaded the basket filled with small dishes for us to eat. 

"This is beautiful Mateo" she said looking around taking in the scenery 

"I wanted to do something spontaneous for our last day together" I told her

"I packed strawberries, sandwiches, lemonade, and some desert for us" I took everything out the basket and placed them in front of us.

"Strawberries? My favorite fruit" she said giving me a side eye picking one up

If it wasn't obvious I really liked Rosalie and felt we could be more than friends.  I planned this out to confess my feelings and tell her about the tickets. 

"I'm really going to miss this" she said eating a sandwich

"Yea but who says it has to end" I said sitting up 

"What do you mean after the World Cup you'll go back to Brazil and I'll be here. I mean we could stay friends via social media" she said not getting the hint 

I grabbed the sandwich from her and placed it on the blanket

"Hey, I wasn't done with that" she pouted as I held her hand

"Who says we have to end here? I mean you could come to Qatar..." I said running circles around her wrist with my thumb

"Mateo what are you talking about" she said slowly 

"I enjoyed our time together and I don't want this to end. I  I really like you Rose" I said looking into her eyes 

I spilled my heart out to her knowing it could go anyway.  

"I've had fun too but you knew from the beginning we are just friends" she tried to say but I didn't care about that friend crap 

"Yes but that was before this is now. I like you and want to be exclusive" I said now holding both her hands 

She wasn't excited with my confession and pulled away from me

"Well I don't feel that way Mateo" she said sternly 

"That's a lie Rose. If you didn't like me then you wouldn't have allowed a lot of things" I spitted back because I know she was deflecting 

My heart was slowly breaking from her response because I really thought this would go better. If she didn't like me then why send mixed signals and act like we could have been something.  I wasn't ready to accept this and was holding onto little hope she was lying. 

"For once let your guard down" I pleaded 

"No Mateo, you got it all wrong everything was friend. Like who are you to tell me how I feel?" she questioned getting anger

She got up and started gathering her stuff 

"I'm ready to go home" she said walking to the car 

I got up fast stopping her from walking away

"Wait! You're telling you felt absolutely nothing?" I asked praying she was lying 

"Yes" she said crossing her hands but I still didn't believe her 

 I pulled her face into mine and kissed her, she punched my chest trying to break free but I refused to let go. I didn't want to believe her words. 

"Mateo stop" she struggled to say as I ignored her

Tears fell down her face and she finally pushed me back wiping her lips as if she was disgusted. My heart broke watching her crying I tried to apologize but she stepped back

"Just stop! I don't have feelings for you I'm not even over my ex! What more do you want from me?" she yelled as more tears

"So this entire time you had feelings for Devon?" I asked 

I needed an answer from her because if its true I'll walk away

"Yes" she said looking at the ground

I didn't say anything else and went to pack up the picnic. My heart felt like it was played and I wanted to get far away from her.  We walked down the hill separate from each other. I unlocked the car and Rosalie got inside as I put the stuff in the trunk. I drove us away from the mountain and headed to her apartment. We didn't talk to me the entire ride. 

After 40 minutes of silence I got to her complex and she walked out without saying bye. I watched her rush inside and broke down in the car. What I thought would be a romantic picnic turned into the worst day of my life. She just broke my heart and I cried as if I did something.