Finding Love

Rosalie

"What do you do when you hurt the person who cared for you the most?"

 I ran to my bedroom, I couldn't stop crying. It all happened so fast. 

Everything was going good the picnic was beautiful and we were chatting like normal. Why did he have to go and ruin it.

I didn't know how to react to Mateo's confusion. I wasn't ready to date again I was too scared to open my heart and I shut him down. When he kissed me I fought so hard against myself I wanted to kiss him back and act like everything was ok but it wasn't. 

His words triggered me and I freaked out.

Crying into my pillow I kept replaying how hurt he looked when I said I wasn't over Devon. The time I spent with with Mateo made me realize Devon was never the one for me. I just used any excuse to get him to back off and now that I did my body felt numb. 

I ended up crying myself to sleep and woke up the next morning to the smell of French toast. Walking out of my room I saw Sophia at the stove cooking. 

"Hey, you're finally up. I let myself in and you were sleeping like the dead" she said flipping the piece of toast

"There were some flowers and a card sitting outside your door this morning from a certain soccer player" she said wiggling her eyebrows

I rushed to the kitchen counter and looked at the card. I quickly opened the envelope and read the letter inside

To Rosalie 

I left two plane tickets to Qatar for you to use at any time. These past three weeks have been the best because of you. You were the first in a long time that has believed in me and though our time was short I want to thank you for treating me as a normal person. I hope after you read this we're already planning which game you can attend. 

p.s 

I left carnations instead of roses. I know you secretly love plants and found a better option

I didn't realize I was crying till tears fell on the paper. I regretted everything. Mateo deserved more than me, he was the most generous man I've ever meet and I broke his heart. 

"Hey, what's wrong" Sophia rushed over to me

"I messed up Soph" I sobbed into her arms

All my emotions flooded out of me and I just cried. I cried for the lies I told Mateo and for the ones I told myself. I had liked Mateo more than I thought.Sophia held me all night, I wished this night never happened that I never met Mateo. I wanted my life to go back to normal. 

The next day

I woke up the next morning  and got ready for work.  Mateo and his team were leaving for Qatar, I wanted to wish him safe travels but it was probably too soon. I put on my clothes and went to the kitchen to make coffee, I was still thinking about everything. Maybe this all happened for a good reason. Who am I kidding... I was a coward and ruined our friendship. 

The carnations he gifted me were still sitting on the counter and I decide to place them in a vase. I went under the sink and pulled out the green vase I bought from the flea market, the pink flowers went perfect with the emerald color.  I thought I would sorwn off flowers from men but here I was cherishing the ones Mateo bought me.  

I left my apartment and headed to the office. We had one more video to upload and then we would be done with the partnership. 

"Good morning Rosalie" Amber said as we both got on the elevator 

"Good morning, how are you today?" I asked her to start a conversation 

"I'm doing great! Happy this project is over though it was fun but Mr. Costa stressed me out everyday" she said while we both laughed 

Mr. Costa was like a mosquito, always bugging us about what we were doing and wouldn't allow much creative freedom. 

"But I will miss the team they were really sweet especially Mateo" she looking down at her feet  

The mention of name made me sweat, "What do you mean." I wasn't jealous or anything just curious...

"Well for starters he is so fine Rosalie and helped translate everything" she said biting her lip 

"He's not that cute" I mumbled under my breath

"I think we connected too" she added on. My mouth fell open as the elevator opened and she walked out

 What does she mean they connected? Was he playing me? I walked to my desk thinking this over. To think I felt bad for rejecting him, he was flirting with my co-worker the whole time. I laughed to myself and focused on work. Mateo was gone and I didn't need to worry about him anymore. 

I wanted to text him but remembered we aren't talking anymore. I wasn't bothered by Ambers comment but it did hurt that our friendship was over, I wanted to joke with him and ask if he made it safely to Qatar. Getting out of my thoughts I went back to work.

Thanksgiving was in a few days and I didn't know if I was going home for the holiday. Around lunch Sophia called asking if I wanted to come over her house to watch the game. It was Brazil vs Serbia and I knew what she was planning. I told her I was going to move on but she insisted Mateo and I could rekindle what I broke. 

Saying goodbye to everyone in the office I decide to call my mom and see what was going on for thanksgiving.

"My daughter finally calls me" she said sarcastically 

I let out a sigh, she was so dramatic, "Hi, mom"

"What can I do for you" she asked me. I got inside my car getting ready to go home

"I just wanted to call and see what we're doing for thanksgiving" I asked her pulling out of the parking lot 

"Well this year your sister is hosting. Her and Jordan are really excited and say they have a big meal planned" she said happily 

"That sounds nice" I responded 

"I hope you're bringing somebody this year" she added in. I rolled my eyes at her statement, she always finds a way to bring up a man

"Mom please don't, you know that's a touchy subject" I reminded her 

"I know Devon broke your heart but you need to move on" she said getting frustrated 

I just wanted to know who's house I had to go to for the holiday and now we're talking about my ex. 

"Ok, listen I'm pulling up to my apartment. Can we talk about this later" I said ready to hang up 

"Ok, I love you" she told me letting it go

"Love you too" 

I got out my car and went upstairs. My life was slowly returning to normal, I think.