PREGNANT FOR BROTHER IN LAW

21: True Feelings

Xander
Arriving home, I heard some murmuring and sniffing coming from the living room. Concerned about my house's situation, I walked in to check if everything was okay. I had scheduled some messages to be sent to Kendra today, I hope she found some of them.

In the living room, there sat my mother, with Kendra beside her. Mama was holding Kendra like she needed the hug and love more.

"it's going to be okay, everything takes time," says mama. I know she wants Kendra to feel safe and loved. Trust me, This girl has been loved and pampered ever since she was young. She doesn't care about it anymore.

I quickly pick up my new phone and send a text to Vee that I am home safe, I promise to text her when I get a chance. I give the phone back to my guard for safekeeping before walking into the house.

Like I know nothing going on in, I walk in clueless and act shocked when I see Kendra crying on my mum's chest.

Raising my brows a little, I walk to her and hug her, "what happened baby?" I ask trying to cool her down. She loves it a lot. My mother gives me a sorry face and I know she is crying because of the baby.

"She is still fragile, she needs you to be home often," mama says to me and I can see it. I place a peck on Kendra's cheeks. No, this doesn't smell like vanilla, this smell like some old batteries with an acidic taste.  Wait, I have been tasting these cheeks for months now, why didn't that come earlier? Fuck, I think my brain is playing tricks with me.

"I am sorry baby, I will be here for you, now and always," the same stupid promise I say every day. Ever since our wedding vows, it had been the same thing I say over and over and now I think I am convincing myself that, I might be there for her but I know whom I want to be there for, isn't it funny?

It's funny when you don't know the true feeling. When you realize that your true feelings are for someone else, the one you never chose in the first place, as much as you try to convince yourself that it's all an obsession and after some days of pounding the 'love of your life,' you will get rid of him or her, you end up fucking the person your tied a knot to because you see your soul mate in your spouse when you fuck.

That is what has been happening to me,  fucking Kendra but in my fantasy world, I am fucking Vee, I need her, I fucking want her in my bed, legs spread wide, or her back on me and she is riding me like crazy. Thanks to my mouth, it has never slipped and mentioned her name, stupid right?

Kendra wipes her tears and lays on my chest, she trails her hands on my collarbone, something I am used to, but I try to act as if I am feeling her, I don't want to create suspicion. I don't want my mother to be angry at me, she doesn't need to be, I just need to show my outside appearance and everyone will accept it.

I lift my eyes from Kendra's fingers that were busy roaming around and look at mama. She is still beautiful, placing the same scarf on her neck every day. The same scarf my dad used to hold for her when they went out. He would lace it on her neck to keep her warm sometimes my mum would place it on his neck, even though my dad protested that it was feminine, he started enjoying it, it gave him peace every day.

"How was your day?" she asks while resting her head on the sofa. I smile as I try to play with Kendra's shoulders. I nod to her, she knows what I mean by that.  "Just some work stuff but not in the office, I was tired and had to take a walk, my head is also hurting." My mother moves closer and places a hand on my forehead, she raises her brows at me, she knows am lying. "looks like it cooled down?" I nod and look at Kendra's top before looking at my mother.