PREGNANT FOR BROTHER IN LAW

17......Be Legal?

I don't think everything is going how I planned for it to go,  everything has taken a second another turn. I never worked for plan B. The deal was to get Kendra to marry me and then I will figure out how to divorce her. Pregnancy was not part of the deal.

Ever since Sofie asked me whether the baby is mine or not, I questioned myself a lot. I don't mind sharing Kendra as I said before. She might as well suck whoever she wants. The only thing I don't want to do is take care of something that is not mine. What if the baby was never mine in the first place, what if she lied and I had not fathered that child? At the same time, I am never allowed to see her phone. They say if you want to cry in a relationship take your partner's phone. I don't know the sort of things she has hidden in that phone that she carries everywhere she goes. I hope those skeletons won't hurt that much but at the same time, I am not going to look in that phone. Even when she was in the hospital, I don't know who had that phone, I have thought of bugging it but I don't want to do that.

"What's with the look, is everything g okay?"

I looked over at Sofie. She can't change the way she sleeps. She never washes her face in the morning. The drool is always plastered on her face and food is stuffed in her mouth while she speaks. Trust me she will get choked.  She has been withdrawn lately, and rarely charmed the way she used to be. Mostly she is busy working on her things and never talks about Vanessa. I am always tempered to ask whether they broke up or what? At the same time, she disagrees that Vee is the reason why Kendra was hurt. I don't know why she is supporting her but at the same time, I have my instinct acting with me.

I nod my head to her question and slurp my tea to annoy her a little, the next thing, I feel a small pain in my head. She has thrown the pen in her hands and is mad. That is the only way to annoy her in the morning. I curve my lips and place my hands on my chest, "at least wash off the drool too!" she jumps off the table and heads to her room. 

No one talks about Vanessa anymore. They are all focusing on other things. My mother is sad that Kendra lost her baby and is planning to visit her after her small appointment. She knows how it feels because she also lost a child. I was never the firstborn, there was one in the belly before me but he didn't make it.

I look over at my phone. Today is when Vee gets her IVF done. I don't know if that is going to change how Kendra feels. She has been sad and wants a baby after she lost the first one.  I don't know if using Vanessa is the correct way to do things I hope she is going to deliver safely.

"Excuse me, boss, she is already in the hospital and the doctors are ready to start the procedure.".
My bodyguards whisper in my ears. I don't know why he loves doing that yet there is no one around. I look over at my jacket and walk out of the road. That child might as well be the only thing I will have in this world. I head to the hospital. I took a day off and lied that, I am not feeling well. Kendra asked about me today but I don't want to start her drama.

Arriving at the hospital, I walk through the room, and luckily, no one recognizes me. I knock on the door where the procedure is supposed to take place but the door is not opened. A second knock and the doctor walks to me with a questioning face, "If you can't hear a welcome it means you are not allowed in!"

I push her over, I am not interested in what she is telling me. I look around and Vanessa is laying on the bed, her small curvy figure is gently placed on the bed like a baby. She turns around, seeing her eyes widen.
"Sir, sir you can't be in here!"  the doctor shouts and her voice is making a lot of noise in my ears. I walk to Vanessa though her composure shows fear. I know I terrorized her but all that was feigned. I even swore in front of Kendra to remove her eyes ball and cut her throat. I can't do that to Vee, she is very special in a way. Plus no one has ever given her a chance to talk about her mind.

"It's okay, he is with me," Vee says. The doctor looks between Vee and me, I turned my face and concentrate on Vee. I hold her hands and kiss them. Probably the big mistake I have down because just yesterday I was threatening to kill her.

"How are you feeling?" I asked when I saw her raised brows. She was shy and looked up at the ceiling. I squeezed her hands because she felt so sad and I don't know if this was the correct thing for her to do.

I excused the doctor for a minute as she was holding the container that had my sperm, I doubt they will even work. I think I will provide new ones after I am done with Vee.
I watched as she slowly curls away from me and looks at the wall. She didn't seem happy about this. It's like she was forced to. Yes, she was forced to do this, she didn't want to do it. She was never prepared to do anything like this. I don't want her to be this withdrawn and alone.

"Vee, I don't want you to do something you don't want. Getting pregnant comes with a lot of things, as much as we will take the baby after you give birth, you will be seeing her every day and it will hurt you. So, if you have a different opinion...."

"Do I have one though?" she asked her voice distant and her throat felt like she was choked. What does she mean by that? She has all the options. She can opt-out and do other things. Does she though? After I threatened her and I know her sister did that too, she feels like she doesn't have any other options.

"I don't love babies that much, so I don't think I will get attached to the baby, I just need that money to work out my life, Xander, would you please just let me do this? This is my only way of writing the wrong."

She didn't turn around, I feel hurt by the way she is taking things, I hate the way she feels so hopeless, and powerless. My hands went to her arms and I turn her over.

"Look at me, as much as you don't have options, you need to be careful. Now smile, because, I am going to pump some sperm from my system to give out!"

I don't think whatever I said was necessary but I feel like she needs to cheer up. Too bad, I don't know how to cheer her up. I need to pretend that I am angry and make her happy for the chance that she got.  I walk out to the door and talk to the doctor. Watching her look at me, her eyes so soft but they held a lot of pain. I will keep my promise of giving her the money.

After some time, she was done, she sat on the hospital bed looking all relaxed but at the same time, she found it hard to walk.

"Close your eyes," I said to her. She was struggling to be comfortable as much as she was trying g to hide it with a relaxed face. She didn't trust me, I carried her bridal style and walked with her to the lift. She agreed to it, she didn't protest, she just hung onto me and slowly placed her hands on my neck.

I just wanted her to be comfortable. I gave the driver the instructions. I wanted her to go somewhere calm, I wanted her to relax.

"Why are we here?" she asked panicked.

"It's okay, I just want you to relax and make sure that fertilization occurs," I said to her. She looked at me and quickly pushed me aside. I didn't mean to do anything bad to her. I hate when someone pushes me off, even Kendra knows that. I place her on the bed and prison her body, she was struggling which was too bad for her and the procedure that has been done.

"I don't want to be here, I don't want to stay here, I want to go home!"
My ears were listening to her cries but my mind was on her lips, the way they moved swiftly as she spoke. I crushed mine on hers to make her shut up, I didn't want to deal with the noise, my kiss was not taken well and she ended up biting my lips.

That felt like pleasure and not pain. It felt arousing and my little brother grew up as the feeling grew up.

"I won't do anything bad, I want you to be safe, happy, and relaxed Vee."  Her face changed, a drop of tear. I felt the crushing of my heart watching her cry silently and trying to hide it. I don't know how many times she has hidden the tears, how many times has she felt safe? What safety was I promising her? The safety of being taken care of by a lunatic who shouts at her every second they get? I can't move her to another place because my hands are tied. I place a gentle kiss which at the same time is illegal. Will anything between us ever be legal?