PREGNANT FOR BROTHER IN LAW

18........With Me.

Xander made sure that I can back home. He didn't make me stay over at the penthouse for long. I wanted to calm down and take a breath. The procedure was quite simple but at the same time, it was overwhelming. Was I ready for that? Is this right? I don't know, maybe it is wrong maybe it is not.  I arrived home before Josh, Using my saving, I bought us some food and decided to prepare a meal. The goal was to please him, to make him happy, and avoid all the drama.

Sometimes I feel like I have a stomach ache but at the same time it turns out it was not that serious. Preparing the meal, my mind drifted to Xander.  Yeah, Xander, I don't know what makes me want to talk about him. I know it's not okay to talk about him. He is married and I am going to have a baby for him and my step-sister. At the same time, I want to see him, to talk to him.

The thought of him, gets me touching my lips. The way his soft lips captured mine. I wanted to respond to that kiss, kiss him the way it was right but the second thought had me quelling and giving him a bite. He didn't take it badly, instead, he smirked, which makes my stomach giddy. It is wrong to think of it, it's wrong to imagine that I will have to speak to him and have a normal conversation. I know what he wants, he wants to keep the baby safe and all the good things he is doing are aimed at that. There is nothing special.

The locks of the door click and I quickly change my face. Josh is supposed to be in the dark remember? He is not supposed to know that I have been seeing a doctor and having some IVF. When I get half the money that is supposed to be deposited in my account, I will pay him all that I owe him.

He stumbled into the house, drunk, again. I thought he didn't drink this much. He tries to catch a wall for support but he ends up hitting his head on the shoe rack just next to the door making all the shoes scattered around the place. 

"Ooh baby, you okay?" I ask as I rush to help him. His breath is awful and I feel like puking the moment I smell it. He pushes me away and sits on the floor. I don't know what he wants but I am not in the mood to start an argument with him.

I wall away and leave him to stutter on the floor. Yeah, at this time, there is no reason to start being nice to everyone when he doesn't want my help. I finish my cooking and serve him, he is still on the ground, maybe he is stressed out.

I walk to him and he lifts his hands out wanting to be held. I carry him and place the food on his hands, this time round he quickly agrees to it and eats hungrily. I am can't sleep in the same bed with him tonight.

That is what I thought, but as soon as I finish eating, he asks me to accompany him to sleep in the same space with him. This is the same place where he took my dignity, being tied to the bed with the belt in my hand, makes me cry because it's like yesterday. I have been using the coach but looks like I will be using the bed. I place him and climb next to him. I am afraid I have to sleep here, I don't want any trouble.

"Thursday!" yeah, the only day for excitement. "You can't use my car, I am using it, use a  bus," Josh shouts at me as I wipe the utensils and place them back on the shelves. What happened, I love using his car to visit my dad when being around. Why would he suddenly deny me? "Ok," I can't argue with him, I have been using a bus for the past month and  I will do the same today, that so means arriving there late, something that I hate. I quickly make everything ready, his breakfast and his meals for the day. That is the duty of a wife, right? I clean up and dress for my dad's visit, "you better be back before six, I don't want you walking past that time," that comes out as a warning. I don't know what's with him and his ordering. I will have to obey it. Kendra said that I should obey him no matter what.