Thinking in soliloquies yet I can barely utter a syllable.
In a room filled with friends or family though I have never felt more alone.
The bright sun on my shoulders can’t warm the coldness brewing inside my heart and mind.
My heart burns with longing to feel something good again.
My mind is a cave; one single thing echoes and resonates and never seems to end.
My eyes a downpour, and my voice a thunderstorm that can’t be heard.
I’m afraid to tear open my chest to show someone, even those I trust, the deepest parts of me, to show my insides and to trust that they won’t hurt me.
Yet You hear my silent calls.
You see my endless flow of emotions.
You see my insides when I can’t bring myself to open up, but I do anyway.
You have never left my side.
I can trust You with my life. Who else is there to trust?
Only the One at the center of the universe, Who created everything, Who, even in the beginning, thought of me, and loved me from the moment He brought me to where I needed to be.
He doesn’t deserve anything other than love and praise for everything He has done.
Glory be His.
He never wants me to be lonely, especially since He is always with me.
I didn’t get what I wanted.
I didn’t get a knight in shining armor, or that Hallmark fairy tale.
Instead, I found something better.
I found Someone that shows me what a true relationship is.
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Burning Flowers
PoetryA collection of my poetry that I have written over the past years, as well as months. Themes come from parts of my life, such as hurt, grief, codependency, and experiencing the love of God. All poetry is of my original work.
