W A N D A x N A T A S H A - R E D

31. Drops of guilt

POV Wanda

'No!' I tell Natasha while I point my finger at her. I try my best to control my words while I speak. I try to be aware of the fact that there are still people watching us. But the longer I see how Natasha is treating me like a child, the more angry I start to get.

'Maximoff, don't..' Natasha says softly while she shakes her head. Her green eyes widen.
'Let go of me, Nat.' I hiss. I'm so mad that she holds me.

I feel my eyes burning the moment she refuses. My red eyes look at her while I jerk my arm away and walk angry towards the hall.

'Wanda..' I hear the footsteps of Natasha behind me. But I ignore her.
'You have to know something before you..'
I hear her words fade into the distance as I turn the corner.

I knock on her door.

I look in the face of Maria when she opens it.

'Wanda, please don't be mad. I didn't mean to talk to Natasha like that.' She says rapidly.

'Shut up.' I say while I enter the room. She doesn't close the door, Maria immediately comes after me.

When I walk in I notice how her apartment is different than ours, lots of photo's and personal stuff are glaring at me the moment I walk in.

'Wa..' Maria starts as I turn around.
'No!' I yell. 'I'm not a child that can't make her own decisions, Maria.' I say. I slowly come closer to her body with every step. My eyes red as fire. 'Don't treat me like that.'

She walks with me until her back hits the wall. But her eyes aren't speaking fear, she just looks at me. Waiting for what I have to say.

'I want you to shut up to Natasha. Stop treating her like that. Keep your jealousy far away from me.'
Maria narrows her eyes. 'It's not because of the jealousy.' She says. The calm way she speaks the words suprises me.

'It's because I think you deserve better. You think I don't know what happens around here? Weeks ago I saw Natasha coming home, laying before the entrance, numbed because of the drugs she took. You think I don't know how she went out and kissed another girl while she had you? I know how she snorts the powder while she lied next to you. It's my job to know how everyone is doing here, so don't act like I don't know anything about the two of you.'

My eyes extinguish in green again. My mouth opens a little. 'How..' I start
'I doesn't matter how. I just want to make clear to you that I know what's going on.' Her eyes look at me, as if they want to tell me she cares for me.

'Wanda, I told you a couple of times already. But I can make it work between us. I can make you happy, I will be there for you every second of the day.'
I feel her hand on my neck, she pushes me lightly against her body. 'I know you thought about us kissing, or maybe you even dreamed about it..' she says softly while her fingers caress my skin.

I blush. And think about the dream I had.

'You're just afraid.' Maria whispers. Her voice leaves goosebumps on my skin. Our faces are close now. I feel her hand on my back. Her other hand still in my neck. I feel the warmth of her voice on my lips. 'Don't be afraid Wanda, just kiss me.' She whispers slowly. Somehow I want to, but not because I love her. More because I'm curious, curious what she tastes like, how her lips will feel. But I know it's wrong.
I open my mouth to tell her that she needs to let go of me.

But I know It's too late when I hear how the door opens. It bangs against the wall close to us.
I close my eyes for a second. I know exactly what's about to happen.

I turn my head slowly towards the door. I see how Natasha is standing there. Her mouth falls open. Angry she looks at the way Maria holds me.

I swallow. I feel how the guilt consumes me immediately.