Ennead || Unseen

First Life V

"So! Why are you killing yourself?"

You stop breathing for a moment.

"...You cannot tell anyone."

"Oh please, if I share knowledge no one else knows, then it wouldn't be special anymore. Just tell me so I can make it just right~"

You sigh, knowing she's teasing. But you did make a deal.

"I've asked your mother to kill me countless times before. Each time she has said no. I want to return to being nothing but chaos, back to being a river of nothing, to go back to...."

You stop yourself. She smirks at the twinge of actual emotion at the end- a dangerous one at that, desperation.

"Awww, you're no fun. But it doesn't make much sense to make the poison slow then. Surely you'd want to die immediately if you're that desperate.... You know the future, don't you?"

She grins, teeth sharpening as you huff and turn away from her.

"Is that your second question, feared one?"

"Mmm, yes."

"Ugh, fine, yes. I know the future."

"HA! I knew it! That's how you subdued me, isn't it?"

Your hidden face scrunches as you turn towards her.

"What do you mean?"

"You're the one who told mother how to take me down. Barely fledged and already betrayed by my dear aunt... my dear uncle? Third question, what are you?"

You actually laugh at that.

"I am nothing."

"Ugh, always with the cryptic answers and yet it was truthful... I meant what do you have between your legs!?"

"Nothing."

The two of you stare at each other. She tries to hide it but her head slightly tips up and down as if she's trying to determine your sex just by look. You sigh.

"Either way, I am not related to you, Ra is not my sister and you are not my niece. Do not call me familial names."

This time the silence is more oppressive, the tension hot like midday. She readies her fourth question.

"You are not related to any of us. Yet I've seen you do... things, at least when awake. You used to whisper to Shu, you taught Tefnut to form condensation, you made toys for Bastet, you combed Hathor's hair, you played senet with Maat, you've done all these things for all of Ra's children.... Why not me? Why did you betray me and had mother weaken me?"

You weren't prepared for this. You were just following along the eye of Ra myth. Ra asked both you and Thoth a way to deter her daughter from destroying humanity completely. Why is she soley putting the blame on you? That spark of annoyance turns into a small flame.

"Well, I'm giving you the chance to kill me, aren't I? Isn't that a wonderful gift?"

She snarls and bares her teeth, unsatisfied. Suddenly, you're on the ground, pinned. Her long nails pierce into your flesh, poking holes in your clothes. Her other hand sizzles and smokes as she braces it above her head, as if burning the air around it.

"Actually, a better gift would be killing all that you love and making you watch instead, starting with that stupid bird boy of yours~."

You stare up at her, emotionless.

"Go ahead."

She growls and swipes at you. You're still as your veil is ripped, the leftover fabric deteriorating out of existence. You almost laugh at her expression.

"What's wrong kitty? Sad you won't see dear "Aunt" Nu's face? Your mother knows about it so it wouldn't be wise to ask as your last question."

You've seen yourself in the mirror like this, you are entirely invisible unless in sunlight. And it just so happens that dear Sekhmet has you pinned in a room with no sunlight. You watch with a bit of a twisted glee as she debates on her last question. You didn't expect it though.

"Did you ever love us?"

......

"No. Never."