Mabilis kong pinunasan ang mga luhang bumagsak galing sa mga mata ko. Nakakainis, ang iyakin ko pa rin pala.
I heaved a deep sigh nang makalayo ako sa kanila. Ang sabi ko hinihintay na ako ni Olive ngunit nagpasya akong huwag munang bumalik sa kanya.
I went outside instead to have some fresh air because it felt suffocating back there, and damn, it's still obvious that I teared up.
Baka mamaya mahalata pa ni Olive. May pagkawarfreak pa naman din 'yon minsan katulad ni Gigi. I know she'll never tolerate someone who belittles me, kahit pa deserve ko naman siguro.
"Why didn't you fight back?"
Muntik na akong mapatalon nang marinig ang boses ni Lazarus sa likod ko.
Damn him, hilig talagang manggulat! And what? Was he there again?
"Nandoon ka na naman," saad ko at nilingon siya.
This is really annoying. Hindi na dapat niya marinig iyon. But if I confront him about it ay paniguradong idadahilan na naman niya sa akin ang pagiging bodyguard niya.
"Why didn't you show them the brat that you are?" He asked again which immediately earned a glare from me.
Brat, huh? He's right though, I'm really a brat. Kaya nga ayaw ng marami sa akin e.
"And?" Nakataas kilay kong sabat. "Cause a scene? And what? Get myself trending and be the talk of the town? So my family we'll get disappointed with me again?" I laughed.
His eyes shifted to me. Nakapamulsa siyang mas lumapit sa akin. Ngayon ko lang napansin na bagay na bagay sa kanya ang suot na black button down shirt paired with black jeans. Kaya pala agaw-pansin na naman siya no'ng pumasok kanina. He doesn't look like a bodyguard but a freaking high end model!
"So you'll just let them belittle you?" He added and scoffed.
Napakunot naman ako ng noo. Bakit ba siya parang galit? E hindi naman siya ang napagsalitaan ng gano'n e!
'Yong ego ko ang naapektuhan, hindi ang kanya. Bakit? Kasama na ba sa trabaho niya na pati ang ego ko ay protektahan?
I sighed and tried to calm my mind.
"It's okay. She's just stating facts. It's nothing to be mad about. Totoo naman e. Hindi naman talaga ako katalinuhan na tulad nila. I have nothing to brag kaya mananahimik nalang ako." I tried to explain so he'd see my point.
Tumango siya at humilig sa railings, habang nakatingin pa rin sa akin, like he's trying to read me.
He then sighed.
"You shouldn't just let them step on you like that, young miss. They'll just do it over and over again until you have your ego totally crushed. Show them what you got. You're not just a nobody you thought you are." Seryoso niyang saad at inilayo ang tingin sa akin para ibaling ito sa langit.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero pagkatapos no'n ay bigla akong may naramdamang kakaiba. Like a sense of comfort and peace, and a surge of bravery slowly building up within me.
"Paano? Wala naman talaga akong maipagmamalaki. Hindi ako matalino, kahit mag-aral pa ako, I will never be as smart as them. Hindi rin ako talented. Sure, I can play some instruments but I'm always just mediocre at them." I countered and remembered all the things I could do. But just like what always happens, disappointed na naman ako.
Muli kong ibinaling ang tingin sa kanya. I watched him play with his tongue inside his mouth. It was like he's thinking so deep, na kung anuman ang isasagot niya ay talagang pinag-iisipan niya.
BINABASA MO ANG
Falling for the Criminal
RomanceKelssey Gonzales has no clue on what she really wanted to be, she always feels inferior to other people, she feels like there's nothing she's good at. But her mindset changed when she met Lazarus Urien, her bodyguard, as he always makes her feel tha...
